Our anniversary today....

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Registered: 11-04-2004
Our anniversary today....
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Mon, 07-18-2005 - 8:04pm

Made separate post but for background read prior post from yesterday from sn sonanddaughter..

He came home early from work like a surpise for me. Wanted to take me out to dinner to talk. LOL yeah rite. It was weird the other day I was out in front just looking at my surroundings thinking ...I am done...we are done..no more I am ready.

I begged him to go out to his karate class tonite and could not believe I would not go out to dinner with him. We no longer have nothing in common everything died. The put downs, the slap upside my head, I am done, I am not afraid to be alone, I have been alone for the last 23 years. It's the moving legal bull$$$$ that is gonna give me a freaken headache LOL..

Anyway that is my victory, not for my kids, not for my mom, not for him but for ME. and the Wendy's tonite I got for MYself never tasted better LOL...

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Mon, 07-18-2005 - 8:15pm
Sometime we need to do little things for ourselves you know what I mean.
5yrssm 
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Mon, 07-18-2005 - 8:50pm

Thanks ..I mean it is bittersweet and I can actually see where he tried but we are sooo passed all that go out to dinner and talk crap. We agree on nothing and the belittling in front of daughter is DONE.

I tried to talk one more time this weekend and he was sooo busy getting ready for fishing trip etc...o well on with my life...now I just have to stick to my guns and git 'er done.

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Mon, 07-18-2005 - 10:38pm
Well, you sound like you are going down the right road now! I knew exactly what you meant about the Wendy's meal; everything tastes, smells, looks and feels awesome! That is FREEDOM you are tasting!!!!!! Isn't it the best? I am so happy for you. Doing it for YOU is what keeps you moving-- I tried to do it for my family, (failed) I tried to do it for my friends, (failed again) but when I decided to do it for me---lookout, I was like a woman possessed! In fact I was... possessed with what life would and could be like! Good for you!!! Keep us posted on your journey to YOU! Just curious-- why do you talk to him? I know for me, I had to keep him away because he was SOOOO convincing about getting help, blah blah blah... it never changes until you do!!!!! Deb
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Tue, 07-19-2005 - 1:03pm
I'm glad you got through the evening so well and that you got the chance to be alone. Good company to be sure. May this be your last anniversary. I just celebrated my first anti-versary on Saturday and will probably never need to mark that day again. Take care.