I did it!!!
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| Fri, 07-29-2005 - 1:42pm |
I did it! I’m all moved out.
It wasn’t easy though. Physically and emotionally, I am exhausted. We started around 5:00 p.m. when the movers showed up, but it quickly became apparent that I had more junk then I had anticipated, so we hooked up a utility trailer to my SUV and made two trips in that. We finished at 5:50 a.m.!!!! He gets home at 6:30 a.m.!! It felt like one of those “While You Were Out” episodes, where they cut it right to the second. Way too stressful for me.
I had three major meltdowns during the move – I just started bawling my eyes out and couldn’t stop. I felt completely overwhelmed. There was so much to do!! The house looks so empty inside without all of my decorative touches.
Right now I’m at work. I haven’t slept in over 24 hours. Right now, I feel numb. I was not sure how he would react to this. He had NO idea at all – I am certain of that. I tried to imagine his reaction when he walked in the house and seen every thing gone. I thought he might call me and start screaming at me, but he didn’t do that. This almost makes me more nervous! I parked my car across the city and took a cab in, so he can’t find car and take it on me (it is exactly what he would do)!
My apartment isn’t completely finished yet, but it is livable. None of my things could be moved into the apartment until the floors are put down, so I decided to stay at a hotel tonight. Wouldn’t you know it – the ONLY room available of all the places that I called, is a HONEYMOON suite!! How ironic is that?? I thought it would be cathartic, or at the very least, stop me from becoming bitter about relationships *L*.
I’m okay right now, but I could crash and burn tomorrow.

Hey, if you crash and burn, so be it.
CL-Blueliner4