AAAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!

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Registered: 09-07-2004
AAAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!
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Fri, 08-19-2005 - 8:38am
Oh it's such a big turn on for Husband to tell me he's going to go get a whore because I'm not satisfying him, then procede to go into an hour long rant about my past sex life and how I'm looking for someone else, all this because when he woke me up in the middle of the night to grope me, I say (nicely) please honey, I have to get some sleep. Ain't love grand?
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Registered: 02-08-2005
Fri, 08-19-2005 - 8:56am

Honey, all this is, is just another control tactic on his part.

5yrssm 
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Registered: 09-07-2004
Fri, 08-19-2005 - 9:06am
Your right, I'm almost there now. I thought he might be changing, because he has been being so nice for the past couple of months, and helping around the house, taking up time with our daughter. I know I was just being hopeful though, because it's tough when you have put all your energy and love into someone who turns out to be a monster who sucks your very soul dry. I was wondering when it was going to start back, I knew when it was going on that it was all about control. I cried, but it wasn't because I loved him and he hurt me again, it was because I couldn't believe I was letting this happen.....again. Damn him for making me feel so bad about myself, damn him for making me feel so defeated and alone. I know the monster is the true him. Now I gotta decide which is the true me, the helpless crying victim, or the strong woman I know I can be.
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Registered: 02-08-2005
Fri, 08-19-2005 - 11:11am
Girl, I know what ya mean.
5yrssm 
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Registered: 03-15-2004
Sun, 08-21-2005 - 1:40am

You know this already ... but it's NOT "love". & it SURE as hell aint GRAND!

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