QOTW: What would you publicly proclaim?

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QOTW: What would you publicly proclaim?
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 3:44pm
If you could publicly proclaim one thing to someone in your life, what would it be?
5yrssm 
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 4:00pm
Scott, It's unfortunate that you had to berate me, insult me, throw things at me, put me down, and call me every name in the book, even to the point you made me suicidal.
5yrssm 
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 6:14pm

Well I wish I could do this to lots of people and I'd tell my ex I'm sorry he is a loser I gave him everything and all I can say is if I never see you again it would be all too soon. Too bad we have to see each other every week. Well I've already told him all of that. But it feels good to vent that too.

Really what I want to say is to my mom. Which I never will say anything to her but I can think whatever I want to. Here goes. You have no idea what my life is like. You too might have had kids but you have never had to work since you were married. You have no idea how hard it is to be responsible for everyone and everything in your life. Somedays I'm not fine somedays I just don't want to get out of bed but I have to because I've got two children and I'm the only one they have. I don't have a life because you say not to that it is my job to take care of these children and that is all but I'm tired of that life and I want more. You have dad and I have no one and I fear that I never will and you even tell me that I never will and I just want to know why I am so flawed that even my mother doesn't think that I'm worth even looking and I don't know how to model a relationship for my kids when I can't have one. I know that it is all my fault you have taught me 100% accountability for my poor choices long ago and that I only have myself to blame but why can't I just be sad sometimes. You can't tell me you know a darn thing about my life you never had to live it. You didn't have to work and no I don't see the value in having to pay for school myself. It was hard in order to pay for school I had to work and in order to work enough to pay for school and I couldn't keep up in my classes. I will not do this to my children. The only reason I no longer want to die by 50 is so my children won't have my life I will do whatever it takes to make sure they go to college and I don't care what that is and I will watch their kids so they can go out because being alone all the time is doing little for me. I want them to be happy and responisble not just responsible. I'll want to hear if they are sad and I'll want them to tell me why and I'll want more from me than I had from you. I know that watching my kids takes away your freedom but it also does mine and I know I don't have the right to it anymore but I want that and I need something else and that is what you will never understand. I've got no one and nothing and I'm just tired of it all.

How was that for a vent. HUGS and Prayers to you all too>Jo

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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 9:13pm

I feel at peace with my STBX. I am not angry with him. I do not hate him. I have forgiven him, and I have let it all go. I wish for him the best as he picks up the pieces to his life, and I am always telling the kids how much their dad loves them - I complimented him today to them in regard to their eyesight. The eye doctor said neither of my boys (the girl isn't old enough to go to a regular eye doctor) needed glasses this year at all, which is short of a miracle based on what I was told last year, and the year before that my eldest needed glasses for school. Not this year. The kids' father is more than welcome to see them. We have a court order in place that allows him visitation, and I felt comfortable allowing the PFA to expire on June 30, 2005. STBX - I sincerely wish you the best, and I hope that you find peace on earth. I truly do.

I'm still dating the same guy - it's been 5 months now. I don't talk about it too much here. Some stuff probably should stay private and it's a public message board, and I know some might visit here and think I'm gloating. So imagine a woman smiling softly and there is roughly how the dating is going. :)

I'd publicly proclaim that the path in life that looks the hardest is probably the path that you'll want to take in the long run. If you take the short path, you're just buying time until you have to go back to that fork in the road and start down the hard path.

Have a good night, all, and a good weekend. I'm going to spend this weekend getting the school clothes ready and everything in order. The kids have been watching Invader Zim. They are awaiting Vol 2 Disk 2. I got Vol 3 disk 1, but I don't want them watching it out of order. I love netflix. We don't have cable. Too expensive. :)

Me

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Registered: 03-15-2004
Thu, 08-25-2005 - 10:37pm

Some of my favorite quotes:


"When someone shows you who they are, BELIEVE THEM!"


"Let go, or be dragged"

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