so numb...

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Registered: 05-03-2004
so numb...
Wed, 05-17-2006 - 1:06am
i dont even know what to feel right now...my hubby and i had a good last night got along, i went out for coffee with friends for a bit, but i wouldnt have sex with him.(kind of makes me feel ill)but he seems ok...so i wake up thie morning and head to work and say goodbye, and then i come home after a long day and he sees my dog chewed up a piec eof paper he wanted and he FLIPS out and starts scremaing at her(shes a little dog) so i tell him if hes gonna flip out, then he can leave til hes calm so then he calls me a stupid ***** and tells me im a waste of his time and leaves. so i come on here to talk to a friend and he invited me to go to a store with him quick so i go and i come home about na hour later and hes standing in the kitchen just glaring at me askin gme if i was with this person and i said yeh and explained what we did and gets all angry and steps back and onto the cats tail, then the cat screeches obviously...so he kicks the cat across the floor and goes at it and i yelled at him to grow up and not flip out over something small and he storms out calling me alot of names.....this tim ehe was gone for quite awhile before he comes back asking for money and when i tell him i have none he scrounges thru my suitcase(im leaving onthursday forgreece for two weeks) and takes out a 50 that i was saving for the airport and i try to grab it but he pushes me hard onto the bed but i end up hitting the wall...then i just back off but he goes downstairs and so do i to make sure hes not taking more stuff and he starts pretty much mocking me, smirking at me..telling me how he looks at other women cuz im such a pathetic wife, etc etc, which hurts me so badly....but i just sit there crying and he storms out then come sback and throws his drink at me and walks out with the door wide open and the dogs right there...just feel at the end of my rope...its always so sudden like this..so unprovoked..