last nite was my LIVING nightmare : (
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| Fri, 06-02-2006 - 5:38am |
Last night my husband got really pissed at me because of my depression, he said he can't take me being cold anymore, so we had this long discussion and to sum things up we pretty much started fighting. he said he can't take it anymore and ill make him crazy if i keep going through my emotional ups and downs (from the bc pill most likely). After an hour of arguing, it was time to take my last pill out of the pack, and i told him im not going to take it, and i wont take it for a month just to see if ill get better... and he told me yes you will take it not because you dont want to, because i want you to, and i told him but im the one putting this s**t into my body i should be able to decide for myself, you arent my boss, im not your property, and i through the last pill in the ash trey. Then he said do you want me to prove to you that im your boss? and then he closed the door, held my down and told me he was going to put it down my throat and make me swallow it, and i told him no, my teeth hurt from the orthodontist, and i still wouldnt let him make me take the pill, so he held me down, i bit down hard on my teeth so he wouldnt get in, he kept and kept pushing on my teeth and made me hurt, and the he took a bottle of water and pored it all over my face, TWICE...... ... also he said he would make love to me by force if he had to, just to prove hes the boss
what would you do? I'm married for four years, i dont want to leave, I love him even though i know im being verbally, emotionally, and physically abused,

Regardless of how you feel about him, you need to find a safe place for yourself. Please do what you can to make a plan for yourself. Here's a page with What to Do if You're in an Abusive Relationship and be sure to check out the board website for resources, tips, and hotline numbers.
Best of luck for you - you don't deserve to live your nightmare.
Welcome, herself.
What you do is your decision entirely. The thing is, though, odds are that this isn't going to get better. Forcing someone to have sex is NEVER acceptable. Yes, it is possible for a husband to rape a wife!
For ideas as to what to do next, check out our board website, accessible through Wishful's sig or at the top of our start page. www.rainn.org is a good place to learn more about rape.
Take things at the pace you are comfortable with, but plan to eventually get out.