Appt today-NERVOUS
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| Fri, 11-03-2006 - 9:16am |
I have appt with local victim resource center, I am so freaking nervous! The place is not far from where he works, and last time I dropped DD off at pre-school, he came home after lunch, I swear to check up on me. Pre-school is also near his work.
Last night he sat down, told me he had appt with lawyer to file, I'd be getting served. I only asked that if he had any control to try to keep it between drop off and pick up times for the kids I sit for. Woke up early am found a letter in my pack of smokes saying he wasn't going to file, but since I didn't care he was, that the only reason he was doing this was because it's what I wanted. That since we couldn't have a conversation, it's what he'd do. I've been basically refusing to have the conversation, can't get sucked back in. I really don't have much feeling left for him. I can't see how he's treated me with any love or respect. When he talks it's to manipulate, I can't get back on that rollercoaster!!!
Support, advice, anything, please? I see a light at the end of this, I know I'll make it. But I could really use some words of wisdom from anyone who has some, any support would be appreciated.

Good luck today cschristiaa.. just follow your gut feeling when you are at the appointment. You are the only one that knows what is best, and just follow that feeling. You will do the right thing. We are all here for you. Please let us know how it goes okay.
Lauren
christiaa, how'd it go?
Today went well, felt right being there. Will be quick though, H took kids for milkshakes, won't be gone long. Got some helpful support, and financial info, for preparing for the future. So all you SAHM need to get in contact with your local center! This pamphlet breaks it all down, not as hopeless as it seems.
On the freaky side, sitting down right now at H's desk, on top are business cards from a factory only a block away from where my appt was!!! Am I being crazy or rightfully concerned? This guys hides everything! Why are the cards out?
Thanks so much for the support. I have close friends, but you can't understand unless you're living or have lived this nightmare. I see myself moving on!