I feel like everyone is blaming me
Find a Conversation
I feel like everyone is blaming me
| Mon, 11-06-2006 - 2:29pm |
Yes maybe I am being very sensitive lately and completely not thinking straight. But I feel like everyone thinks this situation is all my fault. Like it is my fault that I didn't love him enough, or it is my fault that I was with him, or it is my fault that I talked to him in the first place. I am not even talking to two of my girlfriends now because they really made me feel like it was my fault. Then one of them said "I just don't want to see you get hurt." Get hurt????? I said I am already hurt. I just want this whole nightmare to end. I want it over.

I'm so sorry! Listen, I had a girlfriend that knew 10 years ago I was getting my butt kicked on a regular basis. She was in a good honest relationship. Eventually I got the nerve to get out. At the same time, she left her guy and actually got into an abusive relationship, even though she knew what I had been through. She was in disbelief, he was charming at 1st, of course. I'm so sorry they don't understand what you need. But guess what, that friend never spoke a negative word to me, that's why I went to her. I screwed up when she was in my place, hell bent on not letting her live that same nightmare. All it did was keep us apart for 6 years. I ran my mouth to the jerk! By the time we share this info w/ people, we've been through hell!
Hang in there! We'll all get through this together! Have you noticed we all say at some point I can't think straight, or we're panicking, out of it. That's what abuse does. You're here, where people understand. Good for you! Take care!
Yes, people will think it is your fault. HE will think it is your fault. He will always think it is your fault. It is NOT your fault this happened. He is an abuser, and he is at fault. He needs to take some responsibilty here... but he is not and he never will. He is Mr. Perfect in his eyes (Just like all abusers) and he never makes mistakes. You know it isn't your fault.. and I know it's not your fault.. and I am sure everyone else on this board knows it isn't your fault. Do your girlfriends know everything that went on? I don't really think my girlfriends know what went on in my life. They just don't understand what I went thru. That is why I didn't talk to them about all the abuse. They just don't get it. People that haven't been in abusive situations will never understand what goes on.
Lauren
Many, many hugs to you! I do day-care 3 days a week. Had to walk out onto my front porch after all the kids had settled down, just to cry. They just don't understand. Take care of you! You're here, you'll get the support you need.
Carrie