Running out of food!

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Registered: 11-25-2006
Running out of food!
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Thu, 11-30-2006 - 8:03am

Good Morning everyone,
I didn't get much sleep last nite. I am running out of money and I desperately don't want to call H for any, but it's getting hard. He knows I am running out of food,he told me your going to end up calling me, you can't do anything on your own.
Just the fact that he's waiting by the phone for my call for help, creeps me out.
It's 8 in the morning, and I am going crazy here at home,don't know what to do.
I thought I'd come and visit you guys this morning, but I am really stressing.

Lisa

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Registered: 09-29-2005
Thu, 11-30-2006 - 10:32am

Lisa, have you applied for food stamps yet?

 

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Registered: 04-21-2003
Thu, 11-30-2006 - 2:51pm
Hi Lisa. I just read some of your posts. You will get through this. Maybe you can contact a shelter or a church about food.
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Registered: 11-25-2006
Thu, 11-30-2006 - 3:57pm

Hi everyone,
I just got back from grocery shopping, went to a pantry and they have to greatest people on earth, they even gave me a ride home. My food stamps come on tuesday I'll be fine.
I didn't call him, YAY!!!!
Thankyou all for posting and caring as I said before, I am so glad for ivillage!!!

God Bless,

Lisa

p.s. I Have to tell you when I got home I had 7 hang-ups, why? He waits for the answering machine to pickup, like letting me know it's him. What is he trying to do, not knowing makes me really nervous.

Lisa

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Registered: 05-19-2006
Thu, 11-30-2006 - 4:46pm

I'm happy for you :o)

Even happier that you didn't have to call him! I do also wonder why he called and hung up? Makes me wonder, but he could just be trying to mess with your head. Abusers are great at that eh?

Lauren

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Registered: 11-25-2006
Thu, 11-30-2006 - 11:09pm

Thankyou,
His sister called and asked what was I doing for my daughters b-day this sunday. I could feel him next to her telling her what to say on his behalf, anyway i told her were going to granma's and spend the day with her. (my mom)
She says "well I called you a couple days ago" "I said I'm busy". She just wants to tell me how much he loves me and that he's sorry, he really loves his girls, and he doesn't want any problems with me, just wants a happy marriage he really wants to be here for her b-day. That we have been together for so long and we have 2 kids, and on and on and on.
I know this may sound crazy, but I feel strong,and good about me today. I really felt good saying I'm busy, I have to go, bye.
I had never spoken to her like that before, but I am soooo tired of her calling and making him like he's sooo great, if he was so great, all of this wouldn't be going on, right. I believe he wants to worm his way back in here, I don't want him here, ever again!! I am getting tired of all of this, enough. I am special, right?

Lisa

P.s.
About the hang-ups, it was one after the other, he plays phone games alot. I can't afford to change the number. so let him knock himself out!

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Registered: 12-01-2006
Fri, 12-01-2006 - 5:21am

Hi Cubanmom,

I'm married to a Cuban : ) Don't call him. Go to a local food bank or ask family for assistance. Do you have a good job? Have you considered some career training? I studied medical transcription and have been able to work at home and it's been a real blessing. If you want some info on MT, you can go here www.mtacc.net and request a free ebook. Good luck to you. Hang in there.

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Registered: 11-25-2006
Fri, 12-01-2006 - 11:12am

Hi angelwings,
No, I'm not working, but I am looking. I am going to look into the website you sent me, thanks.
I will not call him, feels nice to still feel strong.

Lisa

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Registered: 05-19-2006
Fri, 12-01-2006 - 12:21pm

I am proud of you for being so strong when you talked to his sister. You did good and you should be proud of yourself.

So are you going to your mom's house for your daughters birthday? or are you staying at your place? Have you thought about seeing if you can go live with your mom at all? Might help with some of your expenses if you are having a hard time.

You abuser will try and get everyone to convince you to go back to him. Just be aware of that. The people he tells like his sister will believe him. She doesn't know what you went thru and she won't ever understand why you won't take him back. Good job for being so strong and holding your ground. My abuser actually got his mom to come and talk to me and try and convince me to go back to him. She doesn't understand and never will. She thought that it was BOTH of our faults for what happened... but what she didn't understand was that her son was/is ABUSIVE! He was the problem!!

"if he was so great, all of this wouldn't be going on, right." RIGHT!! If he was so great he wouldn't have treated you like sh*t all along. He's isn't great, he is mean! I also belive he wants to worm his way back in with you... that is his intention. He sees that he is lossing power and control over you. He will try and do anything to get it back from you. But you are strong! You are very special. Don't let him tell you any different. If he says anything mean to you again, just let it roll off your shoulders. Take what he says with a grain of salt. What he says just doesn't matter anymore. He is worthless, just like all abusers.

Lauren

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Registered: 11-25-2006
Fri, 12-01-2006 - 2:06pm

Hi Lauren,
Thanks you made me feel really good. I lied to his sister, we'll be here for her little party. Living with my mom, not an option. That's a whole Dr.Phil show, lol.
I'm ok here,and once I get a job I'll be even better. He hasn't called at all, so I am hoping that his P.O. talked with him. I am just going to keep doing what I'm doing, but I am really angry that he doesn't have the decency to even write a money order for any kind of money. I know he's waiting for me to call, it'll be a cold day in hell!!! One of my girlfriends says I shouldn't let my pride get in the way of feeding my kids, do you guys think she's right, please help with that. I don't think I am that i should call him and tell him he has 2 kids with me and he needs to support them. WHY, should I have to call and tell him that, HE KNOWS!!He's trying to hurt me. Besides, if he was normal, I think he would write a money order and send it to me, because he's thinking of his kids, but he's an Idiot! and another thing, if his sister cared so much for the girls, why doesn't she tell him send her money for the girls????
I really don't want to deal with that family,anymore. I think it's the healthiest thing I can do for me and my girls. As for mom, I love her but we can't live together we drive each other NUTS!!! My mom did tell me last nite, he's gone,it's over, that I should to think of myself as a single mom, and that she really is proud of me, for going and staying strong.

Lisa