Need some support please?

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Registered: 10-21-2006
Need some support please?
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Thu, 12-07-2006 - 8:56am

I got 4 1/2 hours sleep last night. I can't stay at Mom's, I went there cause it was just my sister and her DS. Apparently my brother, girlfriend and new baby are there too. The 2 rooms downstairs that were avavilable I found out were flooded when the sump pump broke, it's fixed but there's mold.

I came back this morning with the kids, had to take them to school, the younger ones will be going into school soon. Brought them into see him. He asked if I was staying here tonight, told him no. I can't cause I know this in between will be the hardest part of it all, have to stay strong. Does anyone know the Pink song, Long way to happy? If so that completely describes how I'm feeling. "It's gonna take a long time to love, It's gonna take a lot to hold on. It's gonna be a long way to happy. Left in the pieces that you broke me into. Torn apart but now I've got to keep on rolling like a stone. Cause it's gonaa be a long, long way to happy" This is going to be awful for awhile with the 6 kids. I feel so bad. Cause I'm having a hard time being there for all of them, they all have different reactions. The oldest is upset, but she really does understand why. Next is my 13 yr old, who asked me if I've tried talking to him. Oddly enough she speaks to me in the same tone he does, I'm trying to be patient but really can't stand that disrespect. 12 yr old seems indifferent but is wise beyond her years and has a hard shell. I'm worried cause she hasn't discussed anything with me. For the 3 oldest I'm just trying to keep their lives the same, sports practices and games, social lives, that's very important to them right now. The 3 younger ones don't really know. Tues night he left for the night, than last night I told them we were having a sleep over with their cousin. Noone asked about him Tues night at bed time or Wed morning. Last night I called for the kids to say good-night.

I can't believe he went to my aunts! I think she buys his crap. That hurts something awful cause I really respect her. I've tried to keep this from her, details I mean. I didn't want her to worry cause she already has high blood pressure and has a lot to deal with concerning her 3 kids. He goes crying to her!

I gotta go. I just have to stop thinking about what he's doing and get my own stuff done. Thanks to everyone! Say a prayer for us please!

Carrie

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Registered: 11-15-2006
Thu, 12-07-2006 - 9:13am

Hi Carrie,

You're doing great...truly you are "doing it"-getting away. It's hard with the kids ....BUT you are showing them that you deserve love and care. It will be a transition for them too but when you are more secure and happy they'll feel sooo much safer and grounded and happy too.

It's going to take some time and trying things to find out what works...

Don't waste your precious energy on what he's doing and what he's telling people-you can already guess-plus if they love you, they'll believe in you or at the very least when you're more settled talk to you about the situation. Your relative with high blood pressure? She can tell if she's too upset and need to end the conversation-we can't take care of everyone. You're responsible only for you and kids....and that's alot!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone who's read your post has you in their prayers-that's a lot of prayers. Keep doing it-keep moving forward-keep your eyes on the prize,

Hugs,
Beth

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Registered: 12-06-2006
Thu, 12-07-2006 - 11:26am
KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE PRIZE!!!!!!!Words to live by... You're an inspiration! Please hang in there and always look forward. You're children will thank you one day for giving them their mommy back!!!! You go girl! You're in my thoughts and prayers!
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Registered: 11-25-2006
Thu, 12-07-2006 - 1:28pm

Hey Carrie,
I just have a couple minutes, but I had to let you know what I think of you "YOUR A GREAT WOMAN" it's going to take alittle time, but your happiness is there, love. Please don't lose faith, cause I have alot of faith in you, your in my prayers and everyone else on the board also. "KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE PRIZE!!!!

Lisa
(A big hug to you!)

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Registered: 05-19-2006
Thu, 12-07-2006 - 6:07pm

I just wanted to send you some BIG (((HUGS))) I'm thinking about you.

Keep your chin up :o)
Lauren

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