I'm miserable

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-10-2006
I'm miserable
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Sun, 12-10-2006 - 3:08am
Why is this so hard? I know I should leave my husband( He's physically,emotionaly and mentally abusive) but I can't get myself to leave. Why am I so stuipd? I know the damage he's causing me and my 15 yr old daughter. I can't leave the house alone. I can't make any decisions about my life. He controls everything I do. I have no friends anymore. I have no life. I want out but I'm scared. I'll have nothing. I have absolutely no skills because I've never been allowed to work. I'm bi-polar and have other chronic health problems which makes it all that much harder.I feel like such a loser.
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Registered: 05-19-2006
Sun, 12-10-2006 - 2:12pm

Welcome to the board Ohmightypurple :o)

First of all, post as much as you like. It will really help you to see others that are going thru/have been thru what you are going thru. I posted a lot when I first came here, and with the help from this board, I left my abuser.

It is very hard to pick up and leave any abuser. They have a way of convincing us everything will get better. BUT it won't. It never will. They are horrible horrible men. They have such low self esteem, that they abuse us to make them feel better. It is so twisted. What kind of person does that?

Here is the board website with TONS of information for you:
http://cl-wishful78.tripod.com/RDAHomePage.cfm

I also want to suggest for you to call the Domestic Abuse Hotline Number: 1.800.799.SAFE

Another thing, it is very normal for victims of abuse to lose contact with friends and family. Abusers make us feel guilty about spending time with family and friends.. which is not normal or right. Everyone needs friends and family.

There is always the option of checking out your local womans shelter in town. They usually have free counselling and support groups. I am not sure if you could go there> if your abuser is controlling and has to know everything to do and where you go, it won't work.

You are not a loser. You are having a hard time and it is not your fault. HE is the problme here, not you.

HUGS
Lauren

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