Blew it again
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Blew it again
| Fri, 12-12-2003 - 8:11am |
He called and I responded. Now, I am beating myself up. Why is it so hard to let go? I have said, don't call, email or messenger, but he continues to. Ok, I know I have to block him and I have already taken care of two messenger accounts I had. Have not been able to bring myself to block him on the third or email. Thought I was doing pretty good. Yeah, right.
So disgusted with myself for taking the bait again.
Maybe I deserve all this crap.

I am on day four. Yipee. So guess what now since you were my NC buddy you have to catch up:-) Lets go girl see if you can catch me.
Love ya
Cali~
Congrats on day four... I hope to be following closely behind you. Stay strong Cali and pass it along my way too.
I am having a rough day. My dog is very sick right now and it was a rough night with her. She is my buddy and is quite old (13). I fear she may slowing down... not something I need right now, but will deal with. Don't have a choice.
But, I do have choices where the mm is concerned and I have to stick with my decisions and not falter again.
Anna
I really hate this. By the way, this is not a good day, if you can tell....
I want to delete the e-mails but don't want to read them. It is hard cause once they are gone it is no getting them back. I need to just do it.
Day five down for me and starting day 6. I am working nights right now so it is 4 am so beginning day 6. I am happy of what I am accomplishing but am still very sad about the whole thing. Even though it was a BAD situation.
Sorry about your dog. I hope the best for her. I am a cat person and have had my baby for 6 yrs now and wouldbe sad if something happened to her.
Good luck and keep me posted. We are going to do this together.
Cali~