Update. Trying to Get Going
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| Fri, 12-12-2003 - 11:46am |
Well the next day, a co-worker who knows about everything, asked him how things were, and he told her about our discussion. She then came to me and almost seemed like my mother. She said we need to talk. You have to quit badgering him, you will here somehting you dont want to here, you will push him away. She said, he thinks about you all the time, he cannot call, becasue he is under a mircroscope at home, since all of this came out. He is back home, but his heart is not there, he is looking forward to the holidays because of his childreen, but that is it. It is hurting him to know that I will be alone for the holidays, but he has to do this to be sure. He has to give her the chance, and he has to try and distance himself from me to be sure what his feelings are.
Well I then went to him, and told him that I was sorry for the email, and he said he knows this is hard, right now he has to do this, and he needs me here as his friend. The romance and intimacy will need to be put on hold for awhile.
Well there you have it, I am no better off. Thinking there might be a chance for us. I want that so badly, but with everything against us.
Just venting, and hurting so bad. Thanks

Anna
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