Day 5 NC and it's a hard one...
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Day 5 NC and it's a hard one...
| Wed, 12-17-2003 - 3:15pm |
Well, this is the absolute longest I have gone with NC. Instead of it being, the longer it goes on the better I should feel, I am feeling that the longer NC the more it is sinking in that it is over and it really sucks! I am so glad that I have held NC, because I normally don't have a way of contacting xMM myself, but the past few weeks I have and this Friday will be the last day I could use that number... but I'm not going to. The tears have been here off and on today, but hopefully tomorrow will be better. I'm leaving town on Saturday for 10 days, so that will help with the NC. Anyway, thanks for letting me share.
Hugs to you all! It's a tough road!!
~Serenity
Hugs to you all! It's a tough road!!
~Serenity

Anyway, come April, I will no longer have the temptation to contact a voice mail number he still has here in my state. He lost his job and apartment here and moved back to the other state, with his w... she had stayed there. He kept his phone number here as a voice mail number and told his w it was for possible job prospects in this area, but told me it was a way of staying in contact with him. He could not understand how cheapened I felt when all I could do was call a voice mail number when he had the freedom to contact me at any time, day or night (I am single).
I commend you on 5 days!! Stay strong. As for me, I am back to day two and so far, so good.....
Enjoy your trip!
Cali~