Day 5 NC and it's a hard one...

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Registered: 11-28-2003
Day 5 NC and it's a hard one...
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Wed, 12-17-2003 - 3:15pm
Well, this is the absolute longest I have gone with NC. Instead of it being, the longer it goes on the better I should feel, I am feeling that the longer NC the more it is sinking in that it is over and it really sucks! I am so glad that I have held NC, because I normally don't have a way of contacting xMM myself, but the past few weeks I have and this Friday will be the last day I could use that number... but I'm not going to. The tears have been here off and on today, but hopefully tomorrow will be better. I'm leaving town on Saturday for 10 days, so that will help with the NC. Anyway, thanks for letting me share.

Hugs to you all! It's a tough road!!

~Serenity
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Registered: 04-12-2003
Wed, 12-17-2003 - 4:27pm
NC is one of the most difficult things to do. Believe me, I am living proof that it is!! Hang in there and keep doing the right thing. My xmm has no children but his w suspects something had been going on and the guilt I feel over hurting her is a heavy burden. He never painted her as anything other than a good person, yet they were more "friends" than husband and wife, one of the usual lines.

Anyway, come April, I will no longer have the temptation to contact a voice mail number he still has here in my state. He lost his job and apartment here and moved back to the other state, with his w... she had stayed there. He kept his phone number here as a voice mail number and told his w it was for possible job prospects in this area, but told me it was a way of staying in contact with him. He could not understand how cheapened I felt when all I could do was call a voice mail number when he had the freedom to contact me at any time, day or night (I am single).

I commend you on 5 days!! Stay strong. As for me, I am back to day two and so far, so good.....

Enjoy your trip!

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-24-2003
Wed, 12-17-2003 - 5:39pm
Hang in there. We never end the A's when they are healthy. So never doubt you did the wrong thing. Being gone with be good for you; take that time to do wonderful things for yourself. And remember what a wonder you truly are!
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Registered: 11-28-2003
Wed, 12-17-2003 - 8:37pm
Thank you both, I really appreciate the support!
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Registered: 03-30-2003
Thu, 12-18-2003 - 1:04pm
Hang on the best you can. Friday will be a tough one, believe me, I know. Consider it a blessing that you'll be out of town, that will help you more than you know. I was gone for over a week and it helped me think things thru. I actually felt stronger than I ever felt and didn't miss him as much as I thought I would. When I got back it seems we both were thinking the same thing about ending the A, at least the physical part. It's tough but hang in there! Even tho you'll have weak "moments", you'll get stronger each day.
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Registered: 10-12-2003
Sat, 12-20-2003 - 1:57am
you will make it we all will. Day 9 for me and I feel again. Pretty bad and have a huge bump on my head. Not even sure if I want to recover but know I have to. NC is best and you won't feel imediate satisfaction but in the long term you will be happier then you could have ever been with him.

Cali~