Going to see him today
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| Sat, 12-20-2003 - 8:21am |
I thought I would be ok, but I'm a little nervous this morning. A bunch of us are going to a play then having dinner at my house. I know he and his W are going to be here. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad the A is over and don't worry about starting it up again, it's just that things are so weird between us. My H is working, won't make the play and will most likely miss most of the dinner.
I'm wondering how we are going to "pull off" the friend thing w/o looking like we're hiding something. I won't be able to avoid him, there aren't going to be that many people here that I can do that. This will be the first time since we ended it in Aug that we are going to be in a small social setting.
I know the minute I see him and hear the sound of his voice my first response will be "Yikes, what was I thinking?" Then some visuals will hit, I'll take a deep breath and move on. I know his W casually so chatting with her is always a little difficult now. She's really a nice person and I would feel really bad if she found anything out.
I know it will all turn out well in the end, since neither of us want the A anymore and wish we had never gone there.
I just needed to talk out loud this morning thanks for listening.

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I posted the whole thing under "katja asked for a f/u to progress", so check out that post. I feel so great today since everything went so well, thanks for asking.