heart skip a beat? or throw up?
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heart skip a beat? or throw up?
| Sun, 12-21-2003 - 2:01pm |
I'm reading all these posts about people seeing they're XMM/ XMW for the first time since the breakup and wondering what its like. Does your heart still go pitter patter and skip a beat or do you simply wish to throw up? I'm asking because I may be seeing XMM for the first time since September in January but it will be in private - just the 2 of us. Would you guys recommend that we do this in a group setting or just the 2 of us should be ok??? I ask because yes, sometimes even hearing his voice makes me remember all the great things about him that I miss so much. Thx

Here's a little history: I met him 5 years ago, we work togther and we have been very close friends this whole time. He was the first person I had ever met that made my heart skip a beat when he said hello to me. I had no idea the feeling was mutual until this past May. I sometimes question if I took advantage of him and his situation. One of his relatives is my best friend and she has been telling me all these years how unhappy he is in his marriage and how much he has changed over the 20+ years she has known him. We fed each others ego's and then took it too far. I was mad at my husband for putting me through lots of changes. His new career, moving me away from our entire families, it was all about him. Looking back I decided I needed to do something for me. (I should have just went out and bought a new outfit)
Maybe it's different for me since when we ended it was sort of mutual. I said I couldn't do this anymore and I know he felt the same way. We also didn't have a sexual affair so that may also make seeing him different, too. It was mostly emotional, but we did cross the line just a little physically and that's when everything turned really weird. Does this make it any eaisier to see him, no way.
To answer the rest of your question, I would meet in a very public place. If you're not alone you can't do something you are sure to regret later. Good luck.