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Just need some support!!
| Fri, 12-26-2003 - 11:26pm |
Today was the 1st real hard day I've had in a long time. Christmas came and went. I spoke to XMM, X-mas eve on the phone.(He called me) Wished him Merry Christmas. I didn't expect any gift or anything. But it would have been nice to hear Merry Christmas back. He was more concerned about my husband being away on business and thought he would have been able to see me while H was gone, but I chose not to contact him. I'm trying so hard to get past this A, but my heart seems to step in the way.
I know that not contacting him was the right thing to do, even tho seeing him would have been wonderful. The after effects would had just weighed heavy on me. I have said before that I hope 2004 is a fresh beginning for everyone. I hope I can make it a fresh beginning for me too. I don't know how much more my head and heart can take.
Thanks for listening!!!

I know its difficult.....but we deserve better. We deserve someone who loves us and will always make us number 1...someone who we can call anytime and anyplace, and be ourselves with. We don't deserve another woman's trash....because thats who these men are - another womans trash....we deserve better.
Now if I can just keep telling myself that, then I should be able to make it through the holidays.