Update, of sorts

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Registered: 04-12-2003
Update, of sorts
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Sun, 12-28-2003 - 10:55am
Have made it to 24 hours, no contact. After a very ugly outburst on Christmas Day and all the apologies that follow the outbursts, I have (oh lord, again) told him I want him to stop calling me. I think, maybe, this time he listened. The longest we have gone is 4 days and in the last weeks, the contact has been minimal.

Last words were from me to him... "Get a divorce, get your life together, then call me and we will see where I am at".

I have not posted very much, but I read this board every day and it is a continued source of strength for me. This has been a long, hard journey, but maybe there is light at the end of the dark tunnel.

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Sun, 12-28-2003 - 12:13pm

Your last words to him were your best ones yet.....I hope you are able to keep your resolve and not return to the old relationship pattern with xMM.


You deserve a great life.....................


cl-nre

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Registered: 04-12-2003
Sun, 12-28-2003 - 12:37pm
Thank you. I hope so, too.

I really want to stick to this. Plus, I have been jeopardizing a relationship I have with a single man, who is available and wants to be there for me 100% of the time. I want to get on with that one instead of wasting any more of my life on someone who is not available.

I have spent time pining for a man who: 1) I cannot have; 2) is not even geographically close to me anymore and 3) treats me like dirt when he gets angry, then blames his health problems on his mood swings.

Knock some sense into me to keep the nc going.......