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| Mon, 12-29-2003 - 8:25pm |
He just called me. Said he missed me. We talked for about an hour. Then he says listen to this. He plays this song that he and I like to call our song. 2 months ago, he plays this song and says, this is exactly how I feel about you. Its that song by Santana, and nickeback. I couldnt believe he did it. I said, what are you doing, I cant listen to that. He says I love that song, thats our song. I said well I cant here it, all it makes me do is cry.
Then he tells me that his children went to his parents until new years. I said oh great, you two have lots of private time together. I asked him if she is still asking about me, he said she did and he packed his bags, and she has not mentioned it again. I said, so she is not going to bring it up again. He said he thinks she is just waiting for something to happen.
He said he is confused, and he cant explain why certain people connect, and why those sparks fly. but they just did with us. He wanted me to know that he missed me. I told him he should leave because he is not happy with her, and not in love with her, not to be with me.
I then said I would see him at work.
This is crazy. No wonder I dont know if I am coming or going, and dont really care. My feeling is what several have told me. I know this man loves me, but does not have the courage, or is to weak to give everything up. He feels guilty about her, about his children. THe dissappointment from his family.
Venting.

Jazzdiva