A breakthrough (of sorts)...
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A breakthrough (of sorts)...
| Wed, 12-31-2003 - 1:50pm |
Actually, I'm not sure it's so much a breakthrough as it is that I have just reached a point where my heart is catching up to my head. Does that make sense? I don't know what it is, but last night I all of a sudden got this peaceful feeling and now I can think about him and not hurt. Has this happened to anyone else? Actually, most of you here will probably answer no, but maybe some of the "old-timers" out there will say yes. I haven't done anything differently, maybe I'm just tired of feeling really crappy all the time, maybe it's because it's New Year's Eve, maybe I've just reached that point, but I really feel so much better today. I actually think I will make it! I hope each and every one of you get to this point, too. I'm not saying I won't slip, in fact I've been toying with the idea of calling him just to say Happy New Year, maybe because I feel like I could handle a conversation with him so much better than I could have a week ago, or even a day or two ago. But right now, I really feel like I'm about 99% back to my old self! Yippeeeeeee!
Have a safe and happy New Year!
Pony
Have a safe and happy New Year!
Pony

Keep up the positive thoughts!
Happy New Year to you too!
Pony, it sounds as if you've reached a point of peace within yourself.
-- but you need lots of time to have the strength to not regress before you could safely contact him. By the time you'd really be safe doing that, you won't want to anymore.
I went through those winsome, just want to catch up moments for months after I ended it. I'm SO happy I never contacted him because I know I would have ended up back in the affair, even though I was from the very first SO much happier once I was out.
Just my opinion but don't contact him. Protect yourself & keep on moving forward - you're doing great!!
I've often wondered what it would be like to contact my MM. I just passed six months, so I think I would be strong enough, but I don't even think it's an issue of strength anymore. Why would I even want to contact a man who broke my heart? I don't.
Hang in there, and congrats for getting to the place you've gotten to.