Here I go again

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Registered: 11-13-2003
Here I go again
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Thu, 01-01-2004 - 6:16pm
I have been trying hard to continue NC. (It's been 7 days) Well yesterday it was broken, not by me, but by him. He called to wish me happy holidays and to say that he missed me. He felt that with us not talking the past few days he was giving my space cause he felt that maybe I needed it. I did not tell him I missed him.I did try and hold a very casual conversation with him, but after a few minutes I had to hang up, due to me being at work. He called again, and I was still holding that casual conversation, but I did end up telling him I was just scared about our relationship because of the way I feel about him. (I know....big mistake on my part). It just blurted out of my mouth.

I am going to continue NC on my end tho. I can't be rude on the phone if he calls me at work tho cause there are too many people around that can hear me talk. Tough spot but I'll work thru it.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Thu, 01-01-2004 - 6:22pm
How about just hanging up? No one would notice. You could say it was a wrong number.
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Registered: 11-13-2003
Thu, 01-01-2004 - 8:07pm
Unfortunely, sometimes I can't just hang up, he is a customer of where I work.
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 01-02-2004 - 12:46am
I'm so sorry. I didn't know that. Must make it so much more difficult.
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Registered: 11-13-2003
Fri, 01-02-2004 - 6:19am
Please don't apologize. I just appreciate your support as well as all the support I get from this board. These posting (each and every one) has helped me in some way, to realize what I don't really need in my life. An affair. Thank you.