Oh, I DO sympathise with you! My xOM (also a co-worker) is coming back next week after being away, and he'll only be here for a short while (I hope), and I can't bear it... I'm in that horrible state where if he comes over to say hi and catch up, I'll feel awful, but if he doesn't, I'll feel awful too... I wish he could just stay far far away across the oceans and then everything will be alright. Are you going to ask your xOM to stop the casual contact?
Now more than ever I need noregretsever's post about staying friends through maturity and civility... I will add 'and keep my bloody mouth shut'... minimal contact minimal contact ... you know, everything is fine while he's away, because the only contact is through the very occasional emails, and things are nice and civil and friendly and harmless, we are platonic friends, dammit... but look at me now, I'm a mess. I hate myself for still being crazy about him.
I've a good mind to look my worst next week when he comes back... don't shave, no perfume, no makeup, baggy clothes ... that'll send him running haha... maybe I should start telling everyone I have conjunctivitis, that'll keep everyone away... maybe you should do that too LOL
Now more than ever I need noregretsever's post about staying friends through maturity and civility... I will add 'and keep my bloody mouth shut'... minimal contact minimal contact ... you know, everything is fine while he's away, because the only contact is through the very occasional emails, and things are nice and civil and friendly and harmless, we are platonic friends, dammit... but look at me now, I'm a mess. I hate myself for still being crazy about him.
I've a good mind to look my worst next week when he comes back... don't shave, no perfume, no makeup, baggy clothes ... that'll send him running haha... maybe I should start telling everyone I have conjunctivitis, that'll keep everyone away... maybe you should do that too LOL