I feel SO much better.........
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| Wed, 01-07-2004 - 1:50pm |
We talked for 20 minutes. I told him I was so sorry for what I did. He said he was sorry for dragging me in his mess. He called us "friends" but we really can't talk like we used to which is totally fine with me. He said now he understands that we can't really be friends because of the chemistry between us. It would start all over again. I asked him if this whole deal was hard on him too. He said it was hard to have the feelings he had for me and not be able to act on them. I asked him if his situation were ever to change, would he explore a relationship with me again? He said yes he would. But ya know that'll never happen. They are in family counseling now and all he does is take one day at a time and does his best. He said you never know what the future holds.
I felt like a huge weight has lifted off my shoulders and I can go on now. I'm not sure why - probably will know more as time goes by. I no longer feel like I could bawl in an instant and my stomach is back to normal. I am also starting counseling next week and I can't wait. I want to mend my broken heart and make good decisions for myself. Last year sucked!
For me, this last contact worked and helped. I will not contact him again. I've finally put this thing to bed............
Any comments are welcome. This board has helped me so much. Thank God for it. I wish I could help others more but I'm so flippin' busy at work and I don't think I'm in any position to offer advice yet. Soon I hope!
ILLE

Did I mean anything to him?
Would the outcome be the same had I had more patience and not gotten mad at him?
What is the prognosis for them? I mean now they've both cheated on the other so can they recover their relationship?
I ask here so I don't ask you-know-who.............lol.
Thanks!
ILLE
ILLE, I know it's been a hard road for you to get this far.