should i or not?

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Registered: 07-22-2003
should i or not?
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Fri, 01-09-2004 - 2:37pm
These last two weeks have taught me one thing...never, ever say to yourself what else can possibly happen. Last week at this time I thought that I was as low as I could go, but I wasnt. And im not going to say that I am now either.

I miss MM terribly, especially now.

MM convinced me a couple of months ago to go to the Dr. for something that we both thought was something simple. I would have never went if not to shut him up. Well good thing I did. I found out the other day that its not something simple at all, is pretty serious. Kind of makes me whinning over mmissing him petty, however, all I want right now is for him to hold me and tell me that everything will be alright. I know that it wont help me at all, in fact I need to focus on the things I need to do now concerning this.

The problem is that I feel like i need to get things in order. And one of those things is him. We parted on bad terms. I just feel like I need his forgiveness. I also think that no matter how mad he is at me that he would like to know what is going on.

I dont want to end up back in the A but I do want to see him.

Should I go to him or not?

iVillage Member
Registered: 07-07-2003
In reply to: me911cc
Fri, 01-09-2004 - 3:00pm
I feel for ya. Except for the medical stuff, I know exactly what you're going through. I felt better after I went to my xMM and said I was sorry but it left me with a lot of questions that he wasn't willing to answer (and maybe that was best - time will tell). And now he doesn't want any communication between us at all which is best.

If it helps you to move on, I say go to him to apologize but don't expect anything in return. If you're hoping he runs to you after you tell him, you may want to re-think this just so you don't end up more hurt.

I hope whatever you decide, it brings you solace. Big (((HUGS)))!!!

ILLE

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Registered: 12-04-2003
In reply to: me911cc
Fri, 01-09-2004 - 4:36pm
hi me sweetie sure hope things work out for you feel better. seem you only here who wants to talk to me.hurting so much rigth now over my special friend. i don't why all these years he has led me on.acting like nothing has happen between us i can remember one time he was at my house he took me in his arms and was holding me very tight against his body and he was loving me.he kept telling me you know i love you baby.my through is he can't his feeling rigth now his W so bad never get better only worse.hurting so much and no one i can talk to.he know i have love him all these years my heart is broken .hugs kimmy