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should i or not?
| Fri, 01-09-2004 - 2:37pm |
These last two weeks have taught me one thing...never, ever say to yourself what else can possibly happen. Last week at this time I thought that I was as low as I could go, but I wasnt. And im not going to say that I am now either.
I miss MM terribly, especially now.
MM convinced me a couple of months ago to go to the Dr. for something that we both thought was something simple. I would have never went if not to shut him up. Well good thing I did. I found out the other day that its not something simple at all, is pretty serious. Kind of makes me whinning over mmissing him petty, however, all I want right now is for him to hold me and tell me that everything will be alright. I know that it wont help me at all, in fact I need to focus on the things I need to do now concerning this.
The problem is that I feel like i need to get things in order. And one of those things is him. We parted on bad terms. I just feel like I need his forgiveness. I also think that no matter how mad he is at me that he would like to know what is going on.
I dont want to end up back in the A but I do want to see him.
Should I go to him or not?
I miss MM terribly, especially now.
MM convinced me a couple of months ago to go to the Dr. for something that we both thought was something simple. I would have never went if not to shut him up. Well good thing I did. I found out the other day that its not something simple at all, is pretty serious. Kind of makes me whinning over mmissing him petty, however, all I want right now is for him to hold me and tell me that everything will be alright. I know that it wont help me at all, in fact I need to focus on the things I need to do now concerning this.
The problem is that I feel like i need to get things in order. And one of those things is him. We parted on bad terms. I just feel like I need his forgiveness. I also think that no matter how mad he is at me that he would like to know what is going on.
I dont want to end up back in the A but I do want to see him.
Should I go to him or not?

If it helps you to move on, I say go to him to apologize but don't expect anything in return. If you're hoping he runs to you after you tell him, you may want to re-think this just so you don't end up more hurt.
I hope whatever you decide, it brings you solace. Big (((HUGS)))!!!
ILLE