Oh dear - I think the hate list exploded
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Oh dear - I think the hate list exploded
| Wed, 03-31-2004 - 7:29pm |
You know its funny - here we were posting today about how we have to focus on all the things that we didn't like about our XOM in order to 'move on', when I forgot one of my weak areas...too much hate/regret/anger etc!! I kept thinking about all the things he's done that have hurt me (OK I admit its really my own fault), and the way he has acted since the affair has ended and just his whole arrogant attitude and my stupid choice to have this affair in the first place and well I could go on and on, but the long and the short of it is I felt I was going to explode in frustration and rage and ofcourse what better thing to do than tell off old what's-his-name? I've done this so many times in the past - and don't ask me how, but it always leads to us getting back together. Anyways - somehow in the midst of the anger I could feel building in me tonight I thought, you know, if you really want to feel better, let it go... Walk away with grace and if ever given the chance you can look him in the eye and say "it's over' and mean it with all your heart and that will get him back for all the stupid little games he's played and the selfishness and craziness. I must finally not play the game - its the only way to 'win'.
