To MaybeKatie:

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To MaybeKatie:
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Mon, 04-05-2004 - 1:55pm
i did download those BNL songs to my ipod and they pop up all the time (i play it while i cook dinner--put it on random songs). I think of you every time i hear one. Thanks for sharing that with me.

Hope you are doing well. I am doing better, though it is, and probably alwasys will be, hard. Things are improving with my H--but the truth is i am not in love with him and he is as boring as a door knob--but i try and make for fun around my house and am just dealing with it.

Hang in there, Katie.

All my best,

Clarice

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In reply to: claricews
Mon, 04-05-2004 - 2:26pm
Hey Clarice, good to hear from you; you hadn't posted in a few days & I was wondering how you were!! :)
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In reply to: claricews
Mon, 04-05-2004 - 7:38pm
Clarice, I have 2 more songs for your iPod... I know I'm a dork, but I get a lot of comfort from music. (Took a personality test recently that told me I'm a "musical thinker," which is very true.) Try these 2 by Great Big Sea: "Something Beautiful" and "Let It Go." Very positive, optimistic lyrics that are helping me a lot.
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In reply to: claricews
Mon, 04-05-2004 - 11:23pm
It means so much to me that you are out there! I really can't tell you that enough. I have been busy with kids home from spring break, Little League (my little guys i coach won again; and my older son's team is undefeated). Things are about the same: i pray (hard) every morning when i wake up; i work hard at putting my whole A into perspective and i just try and hang in there and make myself feel loved and happy.

Had to give ALOT of support to XMM today--as he was criticized heavily by someone else involved in our non profit work. I did what i thought was best: handle it as if he were a friend; support him as i would a friend and be there for him. That's all i can do: be who i am and giving and honest and supportive to all, in all the work i do. I can't let NC (which i really am not at anyway--as i work with the guy) even get in the way of that: he needed support and help today and i gave him that--with no strings or expecations attached--and i feel really good about that. That's what friends are for.

All my best to you MabyeKatie!

Love,

Clarice

ps thanks for being there for me!

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In reply to: claricews
Mon, 04-05-2004 - 11:33pm
I will download these MaybeKatie and let you know. Music is VERY VERY important to me also. I can play something in my car and get totally lost with good feeling and it can totally turn my mood around. It's a way i relax and feel good. I have always been a singer, play piano and a litte guitar. I think music is very, very great therapy to helping one feel good.

After my A ended last July, i took out all my CDs that reminded me of XMM. (I didn't get an ipod until October). Then i started listening to a whole bunch of new music, which of course reminded me of XMM. Today, i listen to a bunch of new stuff and don't think of him as often--although, i am considering (wrongly, i am sure) burning him a CD of my recent listenings for his birthday on Friday.

he really likes music too and i loved that about him. We often talked about songs and feelings and used them to tell each other how we felt. After he first confided in me his love for me, he took me into his car and played me Barry White's "You are my Everything." Oh well. I know he meant it then and if he heard it now he would too. I went to a party at his house and he put on all the music in the background that we talked about. Music was important to us--and always has been for me. On a separate note, my husband is musically dyxlesic and could care less about music. How sad is that?

Anyway, i will download and would love any and all music suggestions you offer. Honestly. I think of you each time i hear those BNL songs come up on my ipod and it makes me smile, knowing that you are out there, like me, and we understand one another and we are kindred spirits.

All my love,

Clarice