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I thought it got easier with time
| Mon, 04-05-2004 - 4:48pm |
One month today that I ended it with XMM. I'm not crying, but there is not a day that doesn't go by that I don't think of him. Every morning, and every evening I check my cell to see if he has called. Why am I dissappointed when he hasn't called? The thought of him moving on, kills me. My life is so much better now, with out all the drama that the A brought. The idea of him with another woman, just kills me. Why would I even let myself think about something like that? I read the post "Thought of the Day" from yesterday.....my time is valuable, and he is not worth it......Strength displays integrity which ultimately can spawn desire and respect. It is
not a game....
not a game....
I have got to let him know that I demand respect. For 17 years he has taken my love for granted. It is his loss, because I know in my heart that no one has ever loved him as much as I did, it was him that turned my love in to what it is today.

I know this sounds trite, but you deserve to be with someone who openly adores you rather than in a relationship that must be hidden. We all deserve that!
Good luck.
You should be proud of yourself; I am sure that it takes A LOT of strength to walk away after 17 years. Be patient, and treat yourself to something wonderful -- a prize for getting through the first month, perhaps. You deserve it!! :)