Thanks

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-03-2004
Thanks
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Sun, 04-11-2004 - 1:15pm
I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who has posted their stories here and who have given me advice. Since I have read over the stories I have found so many instances of the A I was in that it is almost scary. There have been many times that I want to cry while reading them because the reality has hit me. Reading others stories have made me recognize so many things that were going on in my A and alot of things make so much sense now. After his W found out, I was holding on to him while he was trying to push me away. I didn't even realize I was doing that but looking back now it is clear as anything - he was done with me and I was forcing it.

Most importantly, I now realize that XMM was providing the emotional love that I needed/craved. I still recall the times that we spent together but the feeling is not there anymore - it is just the memories now. I am not yearning for it anymore. It is odd how that has all seemed to change. As much as I have also wanted to contact him, I have also realized how important NC is. What good is it going to do? Yes I still want an apology from him but there is no purpose in trying to get it from him. He made his decision to end it and I need to respect that.

It has been a long 4 months since I have last seen him but thanks to the end of the A, I have began to do so many new things that I would not have done otherwise. I still feel like I am trying to find myself or my purpose but I am looking at it as starting a new beginning - the beginning of the rest of my life.

Thanks again so much to everyone here - I feel like this board has been a life saver! Until I started reading it I was basially stuck in old memories of a fantsy. I know that I will proabbly still have set backs and the rough days but everyone here gives me support to not turn back.

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-16-2004
In reply to: yella103
Sun, 04-11-2004 - 6:07pm
You're welcome... I feel the same way! :)

iVillage Member
Registered: 12-28-2003
In reply to: yella103
Sun, 04-11-2004 - 6:23pm


GOOD LUCK Yella we are here to support you any time you need it, lift a toast to the future may it be bight and full of love and joy for you.

F

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-13-2003
In reply to: yella103
Sun, 04-11-2004 - 6:55pm
It feels so good to have this place, a place to vent, throw in your 2 cents and realize that your not alone. Everyone here has been a tremendous help to me whether they realize it or not. I too, say THANK YOU to everyone.

And yella......We will make it thru!!!!!

TCOM