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| Sun, 04-11-2004 - 1:15pm |
Most importantly, I now realize that XMM was providing the emotional love that I needed/craved. I still recall the times that we spent together but the feeling is not there anymore - it is just the memories now. I am not yearning for it anymore. It is odd how that has all seemed to change. As much as I have also wanted to contact him, I have also realized how important NC is. What good is it going to do? Yes I still want an apology from him but there is no purpose in trying to get it from him. He made his decision to end it and I need to respect that.
It has been a long 4 months since I have last seen him but thanks to the end of the A, I have began to do so many new things that I would not have done otherwise. I still feel like I am trying to find myself or my purpose but I am looking at it as starting a new beginning - the beginning of the rest of my life.
Thanks again so much to everyone here - I feel like this board has been a life saver! Until I started reading it I was basially stuck in old memories of a fantsy. I know that I will proabbly still have set backs and the rough days but everyone here gives me support to not turn back.

GOOD LUCK Yella we are here to support you any time you need it, lift a toast to the future may it be bight and full of love and joy for you.
F
And yella......We will make it thru!!!!!
TCOM