Do you wonder.....
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Do you wonder.....
| Wed, 04-14-2004 - 2:14pm |
Do you ever wonder -
Does he think about the times that you shared.
Can he possibly hurt as hurt as you do sometimes.
How he can just go on like nothing ever happened.
Did the A actually mean anything to him?
Does he want to pick up the phone and call you?
I know that I sure do!

Karry
Karry - - who is learning to embrace life on her own raising her miracle, Carley Paige
I had an old high school sweetheart whom I had not seen in over 16 years. We ran into one another in December and it was most refreshing to learn that over all these years he has continued to think about me the way I have thought about him.
My XMM told me once, that just becuase i don't hear from him, doesn't mean he is not thinking of me. I know that what we had was special--albeit destructive--and that i cannot be forgotten that easily.
I know that he will never share what we had with anyone else; not his W or another friend. Ours was a complicated relationship--as many of these are.
You have not been forgotten; if you had, none of this meant anything at all; and we all know, that the stakes and the risks are so high in these relationships, that certainly, there was something there driving it from the beginning.
My XMM used to tell me he thought about making love to me every ten minutes of the day. He would daydream of me in meetings. I know he does not think of me this way anymore; but he does think of the amazing and special person i am and that we came, close, so very close, to destroying both of our lives for each other.
There is a line from the Moulin Rouge soundtrack: "Throw our lives away, for one happy day." We thought about doing that a lot, but we didn't. These are big thoughts and memories that are not simply forgotten, by us, by them, by me, by you.
Clarice
Anyway, what I'm saying is -- looks can be deceiving!
I also think that my OMM is doing that a bit now. playing it off so the emotions dont hurt too much.
I know he loves me, but time to move on!
eek...did i just write that...hope i feel that good again tomorrow.
ciao!
Grrrrrrrr! Men!