ah..... I called

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Registered: 04-10-2004
ah..... I called
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Mon, 04-26-2004 - 10:40pm
I called today .ahhhhhhhhhhhh I know I should not have but I do feel better though. This morning when I saw him i know he was waiting for me to talk to him i could'nt in the afternoon he was waiting again. I swear I feel worse. I called during my son PR. He was distant and kind at the same time. I miss him dearly but I have to stop the obsessing over him.I know he has another girl if you people have read my other post.

I want to start feeling better I hate this feeling inside of me.

I need to concentrate on my H and K.

I'm so week breaking the NC . I guess here we go again with day 1 all I wamt is peace.
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Registered: 07-20-2003
Tue, 04-27-2004 - 8:40am


baccarat,

Don't be so hard on yourself. You are only human and this process is very difficult. You sound like me...all I want is peace too! If I can suggest a book (I love to read, don't know if you do) that might help you through the process. The book is called "Letting Go" by Dr. Zev Wanderer and Tracey Cabot. It's a 12 week step by step program in healing a broken heart. I just started it and it seems like a good book. Take all the time you need, it will get better and easier and the hurt will eventually ease. Take care of yourself first and foremost. Have a peaceful day!

MidnightBlue

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Registered: 04-10-2004
Thu, 04-29-2004 - 12:42pm
Thank you so much for your reply I love to read actually I go every thursday to BN . I will look for the book today.


y

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Registered: 07-20-2003
Thu, 04-29-2004 - 1:11pm


baccarat,

Hey, BN is my sanctuary. When it would get real bad at home with my H (now exH)I would go to BN for peace. I LOVE that place so much. I worked there for awhile but left because I was hoping to finish my degree. That didn't work on one person's salary and then I applied to the bank where I met...guess who?......MM and the rest is history. I guess I did get a degree...in life that is!!

Godd Luck and Happy Reading...Keep me updated...

MidnightBlue