He's such a jerk!
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He's such a jerk!
| Sat, 05-01-2004 - 1:39am |
I'm tired of putting up with his never ending lies and bull crap! How could I have been this stupid? The man (married) treats me like his doormat and I'm the idiot that allows it! He never loved me or he wouldn't treat me like some second class citizen! All his promises always evaporate because I'm always buying into his excuses to see me!
I've tried to end this for 2 years and he always sucks me back in! How do I end it for good?
Give me strength! I have to end this for good! I hate the jerk!

It sounds like you are on the way to ending it already, when the pain gets to bad you will find the strenght to walk away and he will not be able to stop you anymore.
In the short term as much as possable enforce total NO CONTACT, delete e-mail accounts change cell\phone numbers change chat names what ever it takes to close down the lines of manipulation.
Most important of all post here for support and encouragement, also read as many posts as you have time for they will help.
BE STRONG
Free
But you know in your heart you really have to get past this; and the only way to do that is going to be to put you good energy elsewhere. Re-discover a craft or a hobby that you've forgotten about; read a great book you've been meaning to get at; sounds corny, but volunteer somewhere. In other words, stop making him the center of your life and look for opportunities to meet someone else (if that's what you have in mind). You have to create a new life that doesn't remind you of him.
It wasn't my choice, my OM was caught and I've had no contact with him for 10 weeks (no good-bye, no apology, no thanks -- but that's another board isn't it).
Anyway, I never thought I'd survive but you know what, I did. I'm concentrating on fixing up my house, on my family and on my job -- all things that suffered because of that a-- hole. Thank God spring is here, so I'll start the garden soon and maybe take up decoupage. I can't believe it myself, but I'm just fine.
Good luck, only you can make that first difficult step, but you are worth it. He's cocaine, it will never get better. Good luck!
You said....
>>It wasn't my choice, my OM was caught and I've had no contact with him for 10 weeks (no good-bye, no apology, no thanks -- but that's another board isn't it).
My situation is similar. I don't know if XMM was caught but he did move away (altho i knew this was happening) without a goodbye or apology or thanks or even to say he'd changed his mind about us, so i know how you feel. I'm just curious about this other board you referred to. Because whilst i am basically over this whole thing because i see him for the jerk he was i still have my days where i wonder why i don't hear something. Something that just says any of those things you mentioned. "Goodbye, sorry or thanks but this is where i am at now". I still do get things from reading this board even tho i don't usually post but if there's another board which deals specifically with what i'm experiencing then maybe i'd get more from that.
Thanks
Kassie, the only thing I can think of that she could be referring to is one of the sub-folders here. There is a folder for NO Contact Updates. Then, there are the two for married and single OW/OM issues.
From what I've read here, there is no problem with posting about these specific issues right her in the general discussion folder. We have had many conversations regarding the end of an affair with no notice, warning, or anything else. I'm fine with you starting another. It brings up some real iinteresting responses. Go for it, Kassie!
I have been wondering how you are doing. Did you ever get a new e-mail account set up? I'm still lurking here off and on, but have not posted in a long while. I would love to talk with you though. Let me know if I can e-mail you.
Hugs, C