Big mistake!!! Arggghhh

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Registered: 01-27-2004
Big mistake!!! Arggghhh
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Mon, 07-26-2004 - 2:44am
Hi All,

I just feel so bad right now. I havent heard from xMM for quite sometime. I've been struggling to make my days better each day that pass. And I've been ok for most of the days that pass. But a while ago, xMM buzzed me in chat. We were chatting ok. We were only chatting about work and stuffs until we talked about us.

He said, he's moving on well already. And he said that he will completely stay away from me already coz he feel, im still hoping. And he cant continue to hurt me. He said, i deserved someone better coz he cant have me. So, I asked why does he have to give me up. He said, he gave me up not coz of me but coz of him. So, I told him, he made me feel such a failure by giving me up. And he said im such a good person that's why he gave me up. Then I told him, i cant comprehend that thought. I can understand why someone so good needs to be given up. To me being being given up makes me feel not good enough. And coz he did that, it made me feel that. Then he said, i still do love you but i cant have u. Then he said goodbye.

I dont know what to feel know. It just hurts to be given up. Am I not good enough? Why do i look for him when he has inflicted so much pain in me? Oh well... i just hope things get better soon.

Sweetiee...

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Mon, 07-26-2004 - 8:23am
HI Sweet

Hon he is a married man and had no right to involve himself with you are any other woman, maybe he just wants to clean up his life and get right with his wife, I doubt that it has anything to do with you.

You need to start to value YOU clearly you have buckets to offer or he would not haved risked all to have YOU.

You need to end all contact with this man if you want to move forward in life and have a real life, remove him from your buddy list change your screen name block e-mail delete any addresses you have for him, and start once again to build your future.

Your real life is out there waiting for you.

Peace

Free

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Registered: 01-27-2004
Mon, 07-26-2004 - 10:07am
Yep. I will surely start NC today!!! And this time, it's for real.

Wish me luck.

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Registered: 01-02-2004
Mon, 07-26-2004 - 10:14am
Hi Sweetiee! First of all, I think that you are doing the right thing by going NC.

MM has made it abundantly clear that the A is over, and whether or not his feelings for you were/are genuine, you need to move on with your life and let him go. The sooner you move on with your life, the sooner things will get better. I agree with Free, no e-mails, no phone calls, no text messages, no chats. In fact, you may want to either change your screen name, or block him from being able to instant message you. This will reduce any temptation to contact him or vice versa.

Then, you need to focus on yourself and get your life back. Post here every few days and let us know how you are doing. It *will* get easier!

((hugs))

Circe

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Registered: 07-22-2004
Mon, 07-26-2004 - 3:01pm
Hey, I just broke my (so'called) afair with my MM a couple of days ago ( I'm Married also) The thing is me and my MM never got physical I broke it before we did, which I think was going to happen soon. Anyway, it's not you it's him. He's not good enough for YOU. He's married! Do you really want to be a homewrecker. That's why I stopped. What he does to his wife now, he'll just do it to you too IF ya'll were to get together and he was divorced. LEAVE HIM ALONE!!!!!! Just stay on the computer and talk that's what I'm doing to keep me from talking to my MM and keep my mind off him, and IT IS WORKING!!!!!