Hi everybody. I have been lurking alot. Haven't posted in a good while. I have been feeling real good about my decision of ending "the affair". XMM still trys to call on occasion. 1 week ago was our last contact. I never contact him. He always calls me at work. He is still trying to get me to meet him, for sex, still using the same ol lines of his feeling for me and how he just can't get over this. He by no means is harrassing me, it's just like he feels like he needs to keep a hook in me. Maybe it's his way of not letting go. (He had always told me he wouldn't ever let me go). Do I still have feelings for him? Sure I do,tucked away down in my heart, but I have come to realize that I deserve alot more, than what he can ever offer me. With his contact to me, each time just makes it easier to harden my heart to the whole affair thing. Our last conversation he had made mention that his wife is ready to leave him, and could by now be gone, I don't know. But that's their problem, not mine. And I bet if he would sit down and truly think about the years since they married. And the affairs he has had and how as the old saying goes, What goes around comes around. He would be sorry for his actions.
As for my marriage............It's going fine. Husband and I have had discussions about XMM. We have dealt with it and are moving on. He is truly my sole mate, always there for me in good times and bad. Treats me like I am a queen. Always has. I think that's why sometimes I have a hard time forgiving myself for my affair. I felt like I had ruined a good thing, once I got my head out of my A** and came back to reality.
Each day is a new day for me........I may still struggle for a while yet with this....But I know I am doing the right thing and what is best for me. Even if my contact with XMM is still there every now and then. Only talking to him on the phone....Cause it makes me thankful for the real man in my life and that's my husband.
So everybody just hang in there. Keep coming to this board to post or lurk and tell yourself that you can make it. The support here is awesome!!!!!!!
Your sounding real good , time to leave the sticky muck behind for good ah.
It was NICE to here from you again
Free
I want to tell you that I so do admire your straight forward replies you give on this board. To me they are a good, caring, kick in the rear kind of thing. I'm sure others appreciate them too. I don't know your story or past situation, but you sound like a very strong, confident person.
Thanks for being there.
TCOM
I'm doing much better, too. You give great advice.
People! Listen to what she says... she knows.