Can't let him go either,

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Registered: 04-17-2003
Can't let him go either,
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Sat, 08-07-2004 - 8:29pm
I read some of the messages and I though I would share me story also and may be you guys can relate,

10 years ago at my high school graduation I meet my soul mate, we knew what the other

was feeling or thinking before we talked; we dated for 2-1/2yrs I went to college

graduated and started a full time job, He kept pushing me to married him when we were 18 and I just didn't wanted to get married so young, so I broke up with him and started dating, but we told each other if we were meant to be together that God would bring us back together. Time went by and we both got married to other people and he had a child,

and recently got divorce. I just got married 2 years ago after leaving together for 5 years but after 6 months things changed a lot my husband was always stress and short with me, we separated for a couple of weeks and talked about divorce. I got very depressed cried myself to sleep every night and wished and pray to God to please let me die. Well in a Christian radio station I heard this lady called in and say that she waited for so long for a man that one day she pray for one, she told God to send her the man for her and he responded. Well I started praying that day for something either another man or for my husband to change. about a month later I got a letter from my ex saying he has tough

about me all this years and finally decided to track me down. We now talk thru email and phone. My hb and I started counseling and a lot of things came out and things seam to gotten better but slowly are going back to what they were.

I still think about my ex and he tells me that he never stop thinking about me

and still loves me as much or more than what he did back then. I don't have any

children and sometimes the though of getting divorce seams so easy but then I think

about going thru with it and I can't get there. I keep thinking is this a test that

God send me to see how strong my marriage is or is this the answer to my prayer?

My hb has hurt me a lot thru the years (not physically) and if I'm being given a

2nd chance with my soul mate I don't want to regret it later. Can you please give

my your opinion or share your experiences with me?

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Registered: 07-12-2004
Tue, 08-10-2004 - 11:07am
dkirk,

I am a firm believer in fate. You do not have any children, so that makes divorce or a seperation a lot easier than if you had children. If I were you, I would try a seperation and give exboyfriend a chance. I only say this because since your M has not been good, you should find out now instead of always wondering if it will work. Don't do what I did, and stay in a marriage when I should have left when things were not going good for a long time. Now I have a child and can't leave......
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Registered: 05-07-2004
Tue, 08-10-2004 - 1:21pm
dkirk2000,

They say be careful what you wish for. But in your case I think you got what

you wished for. I think you should explore it.

Do it the right way, get a separation.

My opinion.