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A New Day
| Tue, 08-31-2004 - 4:01pm |
I was sitting outside today and looking up at the beautiful blue sky. I had started out feeling unhappy & sad for myself. Thinking about how screwed up my life has become, how sad it is that my marriage has had to endure my A, how MM wants to continue w/me, how it's been so long since I truly felt happy. And then, I had this very calming wave descend upon me. Looking at the sky, I realized that I am the luckiest woman in the world. I have an incredible H who loves me so much, in spite of myself, in spite of my mistakes, in spite of my A. He loves me, he cherishes me, he would do anything in his power to make me smile, and even knowing all he knows (and he knows virtually everything about my A) he wants a future with me. I realized that happiness is within my reach, if I want to embrace it. And I do, I do!! And now it's all clear to me how I can do it. Just stop allowing MM to worm his way back into my life. I cared a lot about him, but I NEVER loved him. Will I miss him? Sure, but I've come to realize that I can miss him the way I miss other people I've had to say good-bye to in my life. And look what I'm getting in return - a wonderful H whom I love & who loves me, no more guilt, no more overanalyzing, no more dealing with MM & his exhausting life. I'm so happy right now I could jump up & down (if it wasn't for this darn cast!!). I just wanted to pass on the happy news.

Out of sight Girl.
Hon cheating married men are just sink holes that suck all the life out of you, a good husband GIVES YOU LIFE.
Free
Thanks again!
Blue-eyed
Those are the actions of a Desperate cheating married man, you are slipping out of his grasp and he knows it.
Lets here it for new beginnings and better days.
Free
Your post is fantastic - so encouraging - thanks you.
On weak days i will come and read this to keep me going.
Heres to a free life without the whining of pathetic XMM, lets take control of our lifes again!!
Cheers,
Kerry.
I wish you the best with your H.