I am trying hard its workin..

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Registered: 12-03-2004
I am trying hard its workin..
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Sat, 12-11-2004 - 10:32am
OM is online now, i am so ignoring him, i feel like i have made a step to the right direction.
He is expecting to be invited over as my husband is out of town for 9 days, but i am going to meet other friends instead of him, spend time with my kids and do things that i used to do before OM came into my life.
Its 6 days now of NC, no calls no chatting no acknowledging.
Just hope i dont regress.. sometimes i just go crazy with temptation to call him right over and spend time with him. But this time will think ONLY of the misery he put me through because of his narcisistic ways.
But this really helps u know... just think of the worst things that happened, not of the good, and if i hear any song that reminds me of him, i just switch it.. and listen to something me and my H used to enjoy. Like Billy Joel - Dont go Changing to try and please me.. That is me and my H song and now, everytime i hear it i just burst into tears, of happiness that H is still there for me, and still loves me much.
pray that i keep up this.. i am the biggest softy at heart
Trish
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Registered: 12-28-2003
Sat, 12-11-2004 - 12:21pm

Trish

Delete him from your buddy list so you will stop seeing when he goes on line, let him find so other toy to play with.

Then turn that thing off and get out of the house, leave the phone home take a couple dimes to call your firnds... now go girl start changing your patterns.

Free

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Registered: 12-03-2004
Sat, 12-11-2004 - 10:38pm

Free you are the best you always answer to my posts, and to everyone else as well. I am really grateful to all of you here on this board, It has become my best place to vent out all those emotions and feelings, which were bottled up inside of me, with no one to talk to about my A. I am constantly lurking here, reading, asking and learning to be strong with so many others.

My sisters know about the A and they have supported me through any decision, so when I decide to leave him they say ok and when I deceide i miss him they also say OK just to be supportive of me,... but I needed to be told to STOP now.

Thanks again and hugs
Trish

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Registered: 12-28-2003
Sat, 12-11-2004 - 11:28pm

Trish

STOP NOW ;o)

Free

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Registered: 12-03-2004
Sun, 12-12-2004 - 12:23am
stopped stopped :-);-)
trish