Today I missed him

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-02-2009
Today I missed him
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Tue, 03-09-2010 - 11:02pm
I missed him so much today. I miss the way he makes me laugh, I miss his voice, his smell, he eyes, I miss everything about him:( today I felt weak, I did not call him but every bone in my body wanted him. I want to know how one day I could be his girl and he is so crazy about me and we make plans to spend a weekend together, to the very next day him saying he does not want to do this anymore, I want to know what happened, I want to know that he misses me also, I want to know how he could just go on with his life as if I did not exist as if we did not share 2 years. But I will never know, I won't ask. It has been 1 month since I have heard his voice and 3 weeks since I sent him an email and he asked me to no contact him anymore. That is why I won't get my answers, I have to have some self respect left but I miss him. I know this is for the best and I tell myself that but as my world crumbles around me a part me wishes his would too, this has nothing to do with marriage, it is totally unrelated to us all I remember is him telling me that he has no stress how could that be? How could he be totally happy? I am going off on a tangent because I don't know where my feelings are other than I miss him:(
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-04-2009
Wed, 03-10-2010 - 12:16am

JLIL -


It's hard.

NC since October 2, 2009.

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Registered: 11-19-2006
Wed, 03-10-2010 - 1:59am

jap,

You miss a fantasy, but not xap!

You miss a feeling, but not xap!

You miss your fix, but not xap!

You can't miss something that is not real!

Stay NC and it will all become clear to you once you're out of the fog. If you stay in the fog, that's what you'll have....fog, but no clarity!

Stay busy busy busy and maybe do something for someone else and take your mind off yourself. We get so into ourselves that we can't see the world.

Xap is NOT what you miss!

Hugs to you,

Mish