My Story

iVillage Member
Registered: 03-11-2010
My Story
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Mon, 03-15-2010 - 5:03pm

3 month affair and almost over. we are still in contact. more so me with him but him when he feels like he needs an ego boost. it is hard because we fell hard and fast for each other. i feel like i can't shake this guy. i feel like he is this great man and great lover....yada yada yada....same old story. we would see each other once a week and it was great and passionate. he said he adored me and liked many qualities i had...i think it was the sex and ego boost for him. i realized when i started to push more...not for time but answers to certain questions...he froze up and didn't want to go there...so that was hard for me....i was never really pushy but in the few questions i had he pushed back...i do notice now that he started to pull away slowly...and when he told me he was going to MC...it was out of the blue..and he even said you knew this wouldn't last...and we must decide how this affair ends...i wasn't in that mind set at all...i never thought about our affair ending and didn't have any ideas about the future..just wanted it to last...i feel used and i know i used him as well..the longest i did NC was for 5 days and then i caved and texted him....it is such a rollercoaster of emotions and i don't advise anyone on getting involved in an affair..it hurts and hurts bad..i love the MM handbook...that is so spot on and make me laugh about such a crappy topic. i love this message board because i know i am not alone.


iVillage Member
Registered: 12-07-2009
In reply to: ange0406
Mon, 03-15-2010 - 5:51pm

Ange,


Welcome to EAS. I hope you are reading everything on this forum that you can, and that you spend time in the Healing Library. There you will find tips on how to start

   ~Iddy~