Angry and irritated.

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Angry and irritated.
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Thu, 03-18-2010 - 11:07am
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Edited 4/29/2010 5:39 pm ET by hazelrose2009
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Thu, 03-18-2010 - 11:20am

Hazel,

I understand that emptiness... I have it too although I am only 6 days in and broke NC yesterday which has left me feeling confused, But I do understand your pain.... for me it feels as if I will never be happy again but we know this is just a stage and I just keep thinking "This too shall pass..."

I thinking of you today and big ((HUGS))

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Registered: 01-24-2010
Thu, 03-18-2010 - 11:50am

Hi Hazelrose,


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Registered: 08-27-2008
Thu, 03-18-2010 - 11:56am

This emptiness was always there that you choose to fill by engaging in an A. Thats gone now so its bound to come back at some point.

I still wake up some mornings and the 1st thing on my mind would be XAP. Sometimes it was because of the dreams I would have of him, sometimes it would be cause I was lonely and bored and wanted the attention, the thrill of someone wanting me.

What I do? I try to take that engery and focus it on something positive...weather if thats baking up a storm, washing walls,reminding myself of all the bad of him, seeing friends-having a few drinks, going for a run, making a list of goals I want to archive. I basically wallow in my pity of XAP for abit then I have to kick myself in the butt.

This is all the in the moment things that I do. But in all reality we have to dig alittle deeper and fill the void- this is the emotional work of finding out what your lacking within yourself. What I have to say about that is....READ...EAT PRAY LOVE.

Hang in the Hazel...youre well on your way!

DM

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Registered: 03-17-2010
Thu, 03-18-2010 - 11:58am

Hi Hazel,


I felt that too.

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Registered: 12-31-2009
Thu, 03-18-2010 - 1:30pm

Hey Hazel,


I bet tomorrow will be better.

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Registered: 02-02-2010
Thu, 03-18-2010 - 2:02pm
Wahoo! Day 16... so so proud (as I said on another post to you). Today is day 49 for me and there are still times when I feel empty. It just goes with the territory. So, I allow myself to feel it, but limit it to just a few minutes and then I move on. No more wallowing in self pity- I did way too much of that this past year. And then, I find my H or call him if I am at work and tell him how much I love him and how grateful I am for him. It takes all of that emptiness away. I know your H is still there for you- so try that :) It really does work for me. I am also a big proponent of happy music and sunshine.
Jane
NC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/