I'll never be enough

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Registered: 03-24-2010
I'll never be enough
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Wed, 03-24-2010 - 5:43pm

Random thoughts from alice and questions others have posed have led to post this. it will be random for sure, sometimes talking to him, other times to myself. I can tell you it's difficult to see the letters when they are all blurry.


"It will all be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."

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Registered: 12-07-2009
Wed, 03-24-2010 - 5:49pm
Oh, chocolat....I couldn't even get past paragraph two without welling up with tears. I am so sorry for your pain, honey. All I can offer right now is a big cyber hug. ((((chocolatmartini))))
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Registered: 10-25-2009
Wed, 03-24-2010 - 6:04pm

CM:


I could have written that letter.

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Registered: 02-02-2010
Wed, 03-24-2010 - 6:14pm

I wrote a letter just like this near the end of my A... and many more before that. It was hard to read this because I try hard not to relive those moments. It hurts too much.

That being said, it sounds like you, like so many of us, have hit rock bottom... you've reached your "enough is enough" point and you need to block and walk. The only way you will free yourself from this pain is to remove the source of the pain. The source of your pain is xap. I guarantee that ending it will empower you. Ending it will liberate you from this vicious cycle. I am 7 weeks out today, and though I have low points, I have never once regretted walking away.

You can do this and we will be here to support you once you do.

Jane
NC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
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Registered: 11-22-2009
Wed, 03-24-2010 - 7:50pm

I can empathize with you.

NC since Dec. 9th 2009

No Contact = No N

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Registered: 03-24-2010
Wed, 03-24-2010 - 8:18pm
ilostagain
"It will all be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
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Registered: 03-17-2010
Wed, 03-24-2010 - 10:57pm

So WELCOME

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Registered: 04-04-2009
Thu, 03-25-2010 - 6:56am
Thanks for posting what you wrote, chocolatmartini. You are very welcome here and feel free to email me anytime
Hugs,
HTGO
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Registered: 01-23-2010
Thu, 03-25-2010 - 8:55am

I think Ilost' comments were right on target. You are still in the A fog. Once you truly get out of the fog you will realize that he belonged to HER (his W) in the first place and was never yours to have. It doesn't matter that he is telling you that she is treating him badly, he's doing the same thing by cheating on her. They are M. Good M, bad M, it doesn't matter, and you are an intruder in their M. Stop romanticizing a relationship that was so wrong from the start.

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Registered: 03-24-2010
Thu, 03-25-2010 - 10:38am

I'm not saying her comments regarding him belonging

"It will all be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."
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Registered: 12-07-2009
Thu, 03-25-2010 - 10:40am

Ladies, I've read it on this board many times that this is the place to pour out one's feelings, whether posting directly to

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