I'm still here

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Registered: 10-01-2009
I'm still here
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Mon, 03-29-2010 - 11:23am

Hey everyone. Just wanted to let you know I'm still here. I had a hard week, but I made it. I'm hanging in.

Hazel

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Registered: 01-23-2010
Mon, 03-29-2010 - 11:47am
I am so happy that you are still here. I know its H.A.R.D,
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Registered: 04-04-2009
Mon, 03-29-2010 - 1:51pm
Hi Hazelrose,
I am glad you're still here. Don't give up!! I know it's a huge struggle :-(
hugs, HTGO
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Registered: 08-18-2008
Mon, 03-29-2010 - 2:18pm

Welcome back ;)


I encourage you to do the hard work of figuring out your "whys." The knowledge you gain about yourself will be worth the struggle you are going through.


You are worth it! It will

Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.

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Registered: 10-01-2009
Mon, 03-29-2010 - 3:08pm

Thanks you guys :) I feel all talked out. I have analyzed and turned this thing over and over and said all the words I can about it for now. There's really nothing else to say for me. It's just time to do the work.

Thanks for being there, as always. :)
Hazel

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Registered: 02-02-2010
Mon, 03-29-2010 - 3:53pm

Hi Hazel- Thank you for checking in... you know when I don't see posts from you I wonder where you are and if you are ok. You can never really be done talking about this... it's a long road and you will need constant reminders, which you know. There are so many phases to wade through before we feel like we are healed ... and before we reach indifference. Keep plodding ahead. We will all be here to support you.

Love,

Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
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Mon, 03-29-2010 - 5:18pm

Jane,

Thanks, Ms. RockStar ;-) You are a rock star lately around here, but I say that jokingly. Watching you rock it out has helped me keep going, so thank you!

When I said I am talked out for now, I just meant.... it's time for me to start actually DOING the work, instead of just talking the talk, you know what I mean? I get on here and encourage people and I talk about how great NC is..... but then I am a hypocrite because I screw up so badly myself! I just want to put up, or shut up, as they say! LOL!!!

:)
Hazel

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Registered: 02-02-2010
Mon, 03-29-2010 - 6:18pm

I'll take Rock Star... though I am far from it. You'd think less of my rock star status if you saw me bawling like a baby in the shower this weekend. Boo hoo... I got caught up in self pity. It's so pathetic, but therapeutic if that makes any sense.

You are not a hypocrite. It takes time. Don't be too down on yourself, just pick yourself up, read your old posts to others... they are very inspiring. You get it- you really do. Your posts illustrate that. Now, just pick yourself up and yes, walk the talk. You can do it. I know you can. Just because since I've posted here I've maintained NC doesn't mean I didn't fall flat on my face for over a year and numerous attempts at NC. I found this board at the right time- at the absolute lowest of lows. I have so much faith in you because I've read your words and I've listened, taken it to heart and used it for inspiration. Yes, Hazel, this rock star garners strength from you. You are amazing.

Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
Jane
NC/LC since January 28, 2010
http://secretlifeofjane.wordpress.com/
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Registered: 04-20-2009
Tue, 03-30-2010 - 9:30am
Hazel,
I'm so glad to see you! Just you wait and see, the next month is going to be HUGE for you; I can just _feel_ it!
xo
Dee
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Registered: 10-20-2009
Tue, 03-30-2010 - 12:28pm

My Sweet Hazel,


Your post are very inspiring to me.

BE the change that you want to see in the world! Life loves me and I love life! <3
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Tue, 03-30-2010 - 2:09pm

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Edited 4/29/2010 4:41 pm ET by hazelrose2009