Happy Birthday. My birthday is this weekend. I guess it must be common for XAPs to send birthday wishes because I had a card at work today from my XAP. Why in the world did I tell that idiot where I worked? Oh yeah, I guess it because I was an idiot to ever have risked my M for him. It's ashame that I didn't recognize his handwriting (I guess I never saw him write anything come to think of it). The birthday card made me realize just how little he meant to me and that I gave myself to basically a stranger. The funny thing is that he signed the card with a pet name I gave him (Italian Stallion). I felt so ridiculous for even giving him that name. WTH was I thinking.
I think you are at indifference which is a good place to be. I am at disgusted which isn't one of the stages of grieving, it's one of the stages of I was stupid and an alien invaded my body but now I'm back. On the other hand, my DH has made arrangements for us to spend a short romantic weekend away. My DH is such a wonderful man and I am so glad I woke up before I lost him.
Happy Birthday, honey. I hope that your day ended on a much happier note than how it started, and I am sorry that XMM was so selfish and inconsiderate. Of course they don't see it this way, but that's because it's always about what they are going to get out of it. This is why it is so important NOT to acknowledge them in any way, even if we want to scratch their eyes out. Silence is dignified AND inadvertently tells them to take a flying "you know what" at the same time. ;-)
Yep, you are definitely in the anger stage. I remember being there for what seemed like forever until I finally learned that it was completely misdirected. All that angst I was projecting at Xmm, my life, my failures, etc. was really at myself for having been so gullable and naive, not to mention placing all my love and trust into the wrong hands. I had to learn how to let it go, forgive myself, and acknowledge that I am only human and will make mistakes. So be it.
Happy Birthday. My birthday is this weekend. I guess it must be common for XAPs to send birthday wishes because I had a card at work today from my XAP. Why in the world did I tell that idiot where I worked? Oh yeah, I guess it because I was an idiot to ever have risked my M for him. It's ashame that I didn't recognize his handwriting (I guess I never saw him write anything come to think of it). The birthday card made me realize just how little he meant to me and that I gave myself to basically a stranger. The funny thing is that he signed the card with a pet name I gave him (Italian Stallion). I felt so ridiculous for even giving him that name. WTH was I thinking.
I think you are at indifference which is a good place to be. I am at disgusted which isn't one of the stages of grieving, it's one of the stages of I was stupid and an alien invaded my body but now I'm back. On the other hand, my DH has made arrangements for us to spend a short romantic weekend away. My DH is such a wonderful man and I am so glad I woke up before I lost him.
Hi MMMB
If Alice is angry she is NOT at Indifference ........
JMHO
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Happy Birthday, honey. I hope that your day ended on a much happier note than how it started, and I am sorry that XMM was so selfish and inconsiderate. Of course they don't see it this way, but that's because it's always about what they are going to get out of it. This is why it is so important NOT to acknowledge them in any way, even if we want to scratch their eyes out. Silence is dignified AND inadvertently tells them to take a flying "you know what" at the same time. ;-)
Yep, you are definitely in the anger stage. I remember being there for what seemed like forever until I finally learned that it was completely misdirected. All that angst I was projecting at Xmm, my life, my failures, etc. was really at myself for having been so gullable and naive, not to mention placing all my love and trust into the wrong hands. I had to learn how to let it go, forgive myself, and acknowledge that I am only human and will make mistakes. So be it.
Anger may be with you one day and
~Iddy~