!!!!!!PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!
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!!!!!!PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!
| Mon, 04-25-2005 - 10:31pm |
Read carefully and pay attention. OK my names Alison I’m 19. Jess is 19 Brandon and Tommy are twin 17 year olds. Adam is 18. And we all work together.
For the last 2 years everything I’ve ever done has revolved around Jesse. We’ve been friends since we met and things were great until he found out how much I liked him. Things happened and we grew apart. We still aren’t the same but we did talk more. Last week I wrote him a letter as follows .....We’ve been friends for some time now. Remember last year how somebody told you that I had a crush on you. Well yah I still do. Things changed after you found out and I never wanted that to happen. You’re a great guy and you keep me laughing. People told me I needed to put all of my emotions on the table and tell you exactly how I feel. I can’t tell you face to face cause it would be really awkward. I don’t expect your feelings to change I just really need you to know. I hope we don’t become even more distant and can remain friends...... Well yah I haven’t seen him cause he’s on vacation. So I don’t know how he’s going to react but then there’s Brandon. He’s a lot like me.... shy with an underlying WILD side. I really like him to but... he’s not Jesse. Brandon told a mutual friend at work that he’s interested at me. I’m a nervous wreck cause nobody’s ever been interested in me before I’ve never had a boyfriend. He’s.. well shy and a little afraid of talking to girls so he won’t come up to me and ask me out and I’m a dork and won’t do it either. Our friend gave him my screen name but he said he doesn’t have AIM. Which is a lie cause I have brothers SN. So now I don’t know what to do it will be 3 more days till I see Jesse and 2 or three day till I see Brandon. So who knows what the hell is going on. And well Adam yah almost forgot him. I just want to have straight out meaningless sex with him. Oh and by the way Adam, Brandon, and I are all virgins. Jesse is not. Which makes me nervous. I can’t wait to have a relationship. But I really don’t know what to do. HELP!!!!!!!
For the last 2 years everything I’ve ever done has revolved around Jesse. We’ve been friends since we met and things were great until he found out how much I liked him. Things happened and we grew apart. We still aren’t the same but we did talk more. Last week I wrote him a letter as follows .....We’ve been friends for some time now. Remember last year how somebody told you that I had a crush on you. Well yah I still do. Things changed after you found out and I never wanted that to happen. You’re a great guy and you keep me laughing. People told me I needed to put all of my emotions on the table and tell you exactly how I feel. I can’t tell you face to face cause it would be really awkward. I don’t expect your feelings to change I just really need you to know. I hope we don’t become even more distant and can remain friends...... Well yah I haven’t seen him cause he’s on vacation. So I don’t know how he’s going to react but then there’s Brandon. He’s a lot like me.... shy with an underlying WILD side. I really like him to but... he’s not Jesse. Brandon told a mutual friend at work that he’s interested at me. I’m a nervous wreck cause nobody’s ever been interested in me before I’ve never had a boyfriend. He’s.. well shy and a little afraid of talking to girls so he won’t come up to me and ask me out and I’m a dork and won’t do it either. Our friend gave him my screen name but he said he doesn’t have AIM. Which is a lie cause I have brothers SN. So now I don’t know what to do it will be 3 more days till I see Jesse and 2 or three day till I see Brandon. So who knows what the hell is going on. And well Adam yah almost forgot him. I just want to have straight out meaningless sex with him. Oh and by the way Adam, Brandon, and I are all virgins. Jesse is not. Which makes me nervous. I can’t wait to have a relationship. But I really don’t know what to do. HELP!!!!!!!

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oh dear! boy-drama can be lots of fun, as long as you don't let yourself take any of it too seriously. :)
i agree with mokrie about jesse. your letter is not going to make him like you. it might make things even weirder between you, so try to prepare yourself for that. don't feel bad. i have written some truly ill-advised letters in my day, too. i've learned over time: if you can't say something face-to-face, you're going to regret that you said it in a letter. that's just how it always seems to work out.
i think you should go for it with brandon. ask him to a party or something. if he likes you, he'll get his act together and take it from there.
My two cents....
Have sex with whomever you want. Date whomever you want. Do whatever you want. Live and learn.
Cuz no one here will chnage your mind about what you're going to do. BTDT. No one could've stopped me from screwing 10 guys at my work. So, go forth and use protection.
I'm sorry I may have came across like a B*tch the other day I really didn't mean it. I know I tend to think with my hormones and not my mind. And with Brandon I don't know what I was thinking by saying I'd go out with him. I just feel like I am setting him up to be hurt. I'm not all that interested in him. The other day he came in to work 3 times to see me. I dunno Saturdays the big day we'll see how things go. I have seen Jesse twice since giving him that note and he avoids me when at all possible. He was helping a lady get stuff off a high shelf and I looked up just as he looked over my way and when our eyes met he stopped smiling and got this really uncomfortable look on his face. I screwed things up AGAIN. Things were getting normal between us and I tore all that progress up. Every time I see him I wish I could have taken it all back. I don't know if I wanna slap him around or cry.
If anyone cause any comments on personals websites, I love to hear about it. I know all the "be careful" stuff. Theres some people I've found on Yahoo personals that seem worth my time so I dunno.
And cherbear what does BTDT mean?
BTDT = Been There, Done That.
Look, if you want some good advice, you'll listen and really think about what I have to say.
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