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| Sun, 07-27-2003 - 7:56pm |
Hi all, just a quick update...I have had virtually NC with my friend, I only saw him for about 2 minutes last nite, and I skedaddled quick before the flirtation started. And H has been very nice lately, he took me out for a while last nite, and then we went upstairs he gave me a nice back rub, and then he actually kissed me, full make out kisses, for the first time in a long, long time. It was nice, but I am still having a hard time feeling connected to him. My friend still wants me to spend the day with him, next sunday. I want to, but I know I have to tell him I can't, because if I do I know what's going to happen. If we could just spend the day together as friends, if I wasn't soo attracted to him, I would see no problem, but I am, so I know better than to fool myself into thinking that we won't fool around. So I am warring within myself, between doing what is right, and what I want. I wonder which side of me will win?
itty

I'm sending you a little extra strength!! I really hope you stay strong and do what you feel is right for you now, and for your future. I'm glad your H was so attentive to you, and I hope you open your heart to him and you 2 can reconnect.
I especially hope that you get whatever it is that your heart wants, no matter how complicated!
hugs
Good work on NC...you are one strong woman.
I understand not knowing how to reconnect with H...so what did I do? I told him just that. I asked B/F what I could do to get things back on track. Be more sexy? Talk more? His response: Uhhh, I dont know, sweetie...and that was the end of that conversation. But, of course, he has no reason to think all of my circuits are out of whack because of OM...
I wish I didnt have to ask. B/F and I are long-distance for the time being because of work. And if I had him here with me, I would be more sexy, I would talk (or try to force him to talk...), do special things for him, and think of everything in my power to make him make me feel wanted/needed/loved again. I do love him--oh, so much...but the past two years have been hard, and we've lost the fire from the early years...our eight year anniversary is coming up next month, and I will be joining him...hopefully, I won't be too lost by then.
So all I can say, sweetie, is hold out and try your best at home... Hopefully, your craving will pass. Mine did not, which is why I'm on this board...and as much as I appreciate the ladies and gents here, I really don't want to need this kind of support forever...
Keep your chin up,
Alameda
Good job on the NC!! Be proud of yourself.
Thanks too to the response to my old post. Sorry I didn't write back. I was on a camping trip last week.
From one person in a tough relationship to another. Just be careful with your H. Remember you deserve the best!!
Hugs to you!!
Katie