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Nice day today!!!!!
| Fri, 08-01-2003 - 8:04pm |
Well, as some of you know, but may not remember, MM and I have been on NC for around 8 weeks now. Well, last night, he emailed me asking to be placed back on my IM list. Said we needed to talk. So we did. Talked for about an hour. He says his absence was not due to something I said or did. He said he was feeling guilty for wanting to be with me, and he wanted to try and stay away from me. But now he has realized that it would not work. He further stated that he has feelings for me beyond what he intended to. This is good news to me, but I am still not at a place where I can just forgive him. This will definately take some time and effort (mostly on his part). The clencher is this: he thinks W may be pregnant!!!! So, I made it very clear to him that if she is, there would be no "him and I" as I will not partake in messing around with a pregnant woman's man. Crazy, right? I know, being that I obviously talk and such with him anyway. Well, I can't really explain it...I just can't. Sooo, just waiting to find out what the test results are. For our sakes, I hope it is negative!!!

What bugs me about your MM, is why couldn't he have told you this BEFORE he started NC? I mean, about feeling guilty and needing to step back? I think his disappearing act was cowardly and disrespectful and I can totally understand why you wouldn't want to just forgive him right away. Whether the W if pregnant or not, I'd think long and hard about letting him near my heart again...
take care,
-lily