Sometimes the smallest things.......
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Sometimes the smallest things.......
| Thu, 08-07-2003 - 10:17am |
make me really upset. MM, has a really bad cold. He wasn't able to go, to work today. He's at home with his W, and the thought of that literally makes my stomach hurt. My mind is driving me crazy with the "what if's". It's not like this hasn't happend before, its just that TODAY, it's driving me crazy.

relax girl! he's not flying to tahiti with the W.
gurl
Hang in there, sweetie!! I know how we can let the most insignificant things matter sometimes...but just try to keep perspective here. The 'what ifs' of your A are completely unrelated to his sick day...
Take a deep breath and find a nice little distraction for you...
Coffee, anyone??
Hugs,
Alameda
Take Face. Insert into Pillow. SCREAM your pajamas off!!!! LOL
Hope this helps!
I just remembered your last post from yesterday or the day before. 15 years? Geez...I would think that after 15 years, you would have better coping mechanisms for the day to day irritations.
In your last response to me you wrote:
"Maybe I'm taking the easy way out. But, I've been agonizing over this for way to long. I feel like life is passing me by. I'm in constant battle with myself, logic over emotions. Analyzing every little word that MM says. Making things bigger than they are.
Yes, I have waited a long time. All those years have been spent waiting. If, MM, and I can find our way back to what we had, then maybe that's a sign that we can make it as a "normal" couple. What I'm going through now is the pits."
And my response to you is: Yes, your life IS passing you by! You will never have a more "normal" R with MM than what you have now...Forget what MM says. It clearly doesn't mean anything--otherwise you wouldn't feel so insecure/confused/and hopeless. What you have with MM is NOT healthy.
Decide what you want. If you want MM to leave his W and he has made such promises, then tell him that you have waited long enough. 15 years is too long for anything...Tell him that you want to get on with your life. Either with him or without him...
Your happiness should NOT depend on his whims. There are other things in life that can give you strength and happiness. Take some control here. We will support you when you do!!!
Alameda
Sorry...... I know this is your post, it just struck a cord with me. I've felt the same thing with X-SM. But in my sit, I'm married and he's not. So, I keep thinking to myself, he doesn't have a commitment to her, but he thinks he does. I want to scream, what about me, don't you love me (of course I know he does) and I want to ask, if you love me so much, how come you're hooked up with another girl? But all of that is unfair.
JM2C
C
Hang in there! I can sympathize . . . lately, little things are setting me off, too. Like tonight I'm supposed to see MM at a social event (neither of our spouses will be there). Well, he is going to get there about an hour later than expected, and now I am so bummed out about it!
Even if we can separate it in our own minds, and somehow manage to think logically for a moment, and recognize that it's not even worth spending two seconds fretting over, it still can grate our nerves, eh? I just keep chanting "roller coaster, roller coaster" and try to remember the good stuff.
Roller Coaster, Roller Coaster, Roller Coaster!
Emmy