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| Sun, 08-10-2003 - 10:26pm |
The weird thing is that I am not really sure that I want to talk to him. This is such a strange emotion for me. I really love this man and miss him terribly when we are apart. I think that I hurt so badly earlier this week from missing him that I almost convinced myself that could (should) end this. So much suffering for such a small amount of happiness. It is almost that I talked myself out of this for self-preservation. Maybe it was thinking about him with his W all week. This has never happened before with my feelings for him. It is almost like I know this will have to end someday and since I have a 2 week head start, why not get it over with! I know that the minute I talk to him tomorrow, I will be right back into him. I am not truly contemplating ending it. More like "could I end this if I had to?".
Anyone else ever experienced this? Weird, huh?
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RH

But we don't tell each other we love each other even though it's been over a year. We just tell each other how much we care. I know he knows I love him and vice versa. We can see it in each other's eyes. How pathetic are we???
What do we do? I don't know. Good luck!! Be strong! If you can stay away from him, keep me informed on how you did it!!
My thoughts are with ya!!!!