update- i'm afraid i'm pushing him away
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update- i'm afraid i'm pushing him away
| Mon, 08-11-2003 - 6:49pm |
I'm back to work today and i decided not to call MM, so he makes the first move calls me around lunch time, which was nerver wracking for me, since I was waiting all morning, i decide to be cool not too loving, didn't hang to every word he said as I usually do. Then i decided to call him back an hour later, he said he was really busy, didn't give the attention i'm craving (haven't seen him for 10 days now, and i missing terribly) so i acted not too interested either. Then before i left i just email him saying "have to go now, good bye) he said bye. Am i pushing him away too hard? He's not used to that and i hope that this all pays off when he notices that i'm not all over him like he's used to, and comes around all interested in me. At the same time i have to see him this week because we will both be off next week and if we don't see each other this week we won't for at least two more weeks, and i defenitely can't take that, but i don't want to be the one asking for meeting this week, i want him to do it, and not me. Am I doing the right thing, acting this way? My heart wants to call and be all over, but my mind is telling me to be stronger. Any thoughts on this anyone?
