I feel mm is pulling away
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I feel mm is pulling away
| Fri, 09-26-2003 - 5:46am |
Hey ladies just wanted to fill everyone in on what's been going on with me and my mm. Well, last time we saw each other was last wed, he sent me messages telling me that he wanted me to call me and talk about getting together so i did and like i said we saw each other so anyways i havent heard anything from him since the last time we saw each other, well i decided to call him like i always do on his day off to see what mm was doing, mm doesnt mind me calling him b/c i know the times he is at home and when she is at work, so i called him and we talked about general things and i told him that i missed him and how i really wanted to see him, we were joking and laughing about silly things as usual, so i asked him why havent i heard from him, he was like well i have been working late, been really tired afterwards and havent had time to get on the internet to leave a message and i was like well i understand that b/c he does have a rough job, i should know i used to work at the same company he does, so i asked him about our last conversation we had where i asked him "how did he feel about me" and he said "he hates when i put him on the spot like that" well he has never told me why he felt that i did that so i wanted to know and i asked him, he said "because i always put him on the spot with questions like that, and i said "when it comes to anything" and he said yes. I was so pissed at mm for saying that, all i wanted to know was how he felt about me, where did i stand with him, and he goes and makes a comment like that. Well being the nice person that i try to be, i let it go and changed the subject, well we were talking again and he got another call so he asked me to hold on and then he came back on the line, so we started picking up the conversation again and he got another beep and asked me to hold on, well i waited and waited and the next thing i know the line went dead, so i called back b/c i thought maybe he accidently hung up on me, i called and called and no answer, i knew he was there b/c he just got thru telling me some friends of his were coming over, so the last time i tried calling, someone answered the phone and i thought it was him, so i said to the person playing around "why did u hang the phone up on me" and guess what it wasnt my mm on the other line, it was one of his friends, he asked me who i was and all i could do was hang the phone up, i felt so stupid, i know i could've made up a lie or something but out of shock i just slammed the phone down on the receiver. Well that was yesterday and i havent heard anything from mm, i am starting to think that he is pulling away slowly just by what happened and then not hearing anything from him about it. I am so angry that he could let his friend answer his phone when he knew i would call back, the only thing i can think of is maybe he went off with another friend uptown and left the other guy there to watch his son, the phone rang and so he decided to pick it up, hell i really dont know but now like i said i am very confused, embarassed, and really angry at mm. I know this was long ladies and probably really not something to post but have any of you ever had something this freaking embarassing happen to you? Well as for mm, i am not going to call him, send emails etc. If he wants to see me or keep in contact with me than he needs to start taking the initiative, i am tired of doing almost all the work when it comes to our ema, he tells me the reason he doesnt call me is b/c my husband knows about us and the day he decided to call me knowing his luck my h wouold answer, but i dont believe that story for one min. Well i am sorry i have rambled on like this but i just need some advice or something from someone on the board who can try to make sense out of all of this. I need some encouragement, something to lift me up about this whole crazy situation, just no bashing b/c right now i feel really bad already and i dont need anyone to ridicule me. Thanks for listening guys, talk to ya later

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You want encouragement, and something to lift you up about this whole crazy situation, but what you WANT is for us to lie to you and tell you it's okay when it really doesn't seem okay at all. I am NOT bashing you, I am trying to tell you what you NEED to know, even if you don't WANT to know it: your MM may or may not be pulling away, but what he is certainly doing is making it clear that (1) he does not "feel" the way you feel about him, whatever it is that you feel, and (2) he does not really give a hoot about your feelings - his inconsideration made that clear. What his actions and words also make clear is that he is slippery and likes to turn things around and twist them so that you don't know if you're coming or going! You asked him how he felt, and he turned it around on you and told you he hates when you put him on the spot! He should have just told you that he doesn't see the relationship in terms of "feelings" and sees it more as simply a fun activity with someone he enjoys spending time with and having sex with (which is what it sounds like to me). Instead, he makes you feel crazy!!
You are not crazy, and you need not be embarassed. I did WAY worse things than that. I could write you a book of 'em. I am here to tell about it, and I am a happy person and NOT a loser!!!!
I urge you to rethink your involvement with this guy, no matter WHAT he does next. No matter how nice he is, you should NOT easily forget the incidents you described in your post.