I think its all over..
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I think its all over..
| Tue, 09-30-2003 - 5:29am |
Hi you all, i don't know what happened, but suddenly the past two weeks maybe we started going downhill. I was so hurt and angry and impatient 3 weeks ago when i heard nothing, so really just tried my best to play it cool the last weeks. Yesterday was exactly a month since we met, and i read through this month of journal entries. a month of can't wait to have him call.Him calling? wow, i can hardly remember that anymore. And in in the beginning all the emails and text messages. I don't even think he reads my email to him anymore.. at least he says nothing about it.
I want our closeness. I just think with the distance, and his mom dying and his fear of everything that what was once fire and exciting is just a distant problem that can be ignored if he chooses to do so. Not responding to text messages. Yesterday not calling, then texting that he will text later, thanks.. thanks.. what am i a secretary, thanks.. thats okay. he said he will call today, but i really feel so tired inside. I think of him and my heart flutters. I have been trying to do that with my DH also. We've been good together lately. I think he missed that. He deserves me there 100% and i can see how thinking of OM makes me nuts and not there at all for him.. why are things so hard.. thanks byee

I know that guys...all the wonderful ones I've dated...lol...when they want to break things off, but don't want to hurt the girl, they try to disappear, hoping she will either take a hint, or flip out and tell him to stay away.
I have found that if I leave a guy alone, no calling, no texting, saying NO if he calls and says, "can we do something tonight?" (instead of calling on monday to see if we can get together on the weekend), then he wonders what I've been up to because I haven't been looking for him. I often do this no matter how much I want him to want me, it can take months for the guy to come around....men are so dumb.
I have had some of my best relationships by doing this....then later realizing that I can't stand the guy, and dumping him anyways.